so, it is a new day, new month, like i said yesterday. so far today i have had some crystal light (like two sips) and a jolly rancher (i know i suck). so yeah, i am not going to fast, b/c that just leads to binging for me. i plan to stick to a restricted amount of cals a day. i was planning on doing 1,000 with a couple other girls on here, but i am ( Read more... )

Ok, so i am just going to pour it all out. I am pathetic. I am fat and pathetic. I try and try to lose weight and I continue to fail everytime. I don't have the slightest bit of will power. This is what I have been doing for about a week now, and I am sick of it: I eat a bagel for breakfast and then a yogurt for lunch. That is all I will eat all ( Read more... )

Hey guys, I am a returning ana.....havent been on in a while. I thought I could do the whole "eat healthy" thing, but that went totally out of control. now i am a fat slob who let herself go. it is sick. i need you girls more than ever. i am so out of control it is not even funny. i was wanting to start back out by just restricting to around 500 ( Read more... )

Well, it has been about 3 months since i have last been on here ( Read more... )

hello chicas! well its another day....so far i have had some spicy v8 (30 cals) and a yogurt (60 cals) i am supposed to meet my mom for lunch at the mall close by (gotta get my brother a bday gift), we were going to eat at the bread company (panera, whatever it is called). i was either thnking about getting out of it by telling her i ate some food ( Read more... )

well today is going well so far. (so far is the key word) :) i am going to try and stay away from lunch because i just found out that my boyfriend is going to pick me up at work and take me to his house to eat kabobs!.....that means i have to be extra good during the day so i can eat tonight(they would get suspicious if i didnt ( Read more... )

been doing good today....seems like a lot of girls are! very good to hear! today i have had ( Read more... )

good morning my lovely anas! (or afternoon, night...depending on where you are!) i actually had a pretty ok weekend. well take it back...just saturday was good. heres how it went ( Read more... )

today i am going to get a treadmill over lunch break. i am soo excited to FINALLY get one! although i will not be able to get it together tonight b/c I am going on a tour of our new baseball stadium in town (Go STL. Cardinals!!!!!! woot woot!). but tomorrow night, i will get it together and run until my legs give out. my plan is to use it as soon ( Read more... )

you know what i wish? i wish that i could have some will power for more than a fucking week at a time. i am sick of being a fat fucking failure. my life is soooo sucky right now. ok, i take it back...my body is so sucky. i have a great boyfriend, great family, and a great job...but i HATE my body soooo much. i miss the control. i miss the ( Read more... )