I am happy.

ohhhhhhhh levi ( Read more... )

This week has been a big week. My lil baby boy got his first tooth! [bottom tooth]. He's been putting his lil fingies in his mouth because he notices a change as well. (pain too)... I give him these cool teething tablets and teething gel to help. I feel like this is a huge step though. It makes me excited and sad at the same time. Excited because I ( Read more... )

i'm really into orange foods right now.

• doritos.
• cheetos.
• macraroni n' cheese.
• peaches.
• crackers.

it's almost 2007. wowzers.

2006 was an amazing year.
i am really, really happy to say that right now i have never felt more comfortable in life.
this year has taught me so much about myself and others.

everything has happened for a reason.
i believe it.

i am more excited for christmas this year more than i have been any other year.
i feel like i am Marie ( Read more... )

i feel so weird right now. i feel so happy and so sad at the same time.

i actually don't know what i'm feeling.

i feel excited knowing that tomorrow (if i have him) I wll finally be able to meet this this miracle sent from heaven above.
i feel truly blessed to have made it this far and for what is going to be ahead.

but at the same time i feel sad. i ( Read more... )

these pasts 9 months haven't been easy.
at all.
it's been hard.
it's been so fucking hard.
i contemplated every day for last 9 months.
why this was my test?
           why do things happen the way that they do?
over and over, i have cried myself to sleep thinking that nothing will ever be okay again. =

i had this horrible mindset of

• nothing ( Read more... )

[  i actually don't think this person will ever truly know::
:: how deeply moved i was (( just by this little letter ))
:: and how i sat there for a good fifteen minutes just re-reading it
:: and how after that, i posted it right next to my computer so it's available at glance for a quick smile
:: and how after posting it, i wrote a journal entry ( Read more... )

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so i've been getting pretty excited about the baby to come. [not that i wasn't ever before]. i'm just exceptionally excited now that the date's so close.

i have found myself 'nesting'. today i put together all of his toys, cleaned his clothes, packed the hospital bag, put the sheets in his basinet,
and more and more and more stuff...

completing ( Read more... )