Well Halloween came and went and I did nothing but sit here and rot (no pun intended). It is already November and the time can't go fast enough for me. I want Christmas to come and go. I really don't like Christmas because I never have any money to buy anybody anything. It reminds me of how bad I fucked everything up. I get embarrassed about ( Read more... )

My arms used to be bloody and full of holes ( Read more... )

Well today was good, I went to see Saw 2 and it was fucking awesome! I was allowed to leave the institution for awhile and I got to see my parents. I needed the break from this place. I needed to feel again. I needed to talk to her. I'm so glad that I got to hear from her. I love her so much. I love Barbra. She is my everything and my world ( Read more... )

Well here I am again in my loneliness. I'm trapped in two cells, one a physical and the other a mental one. Someone close to me tried to overdose on their medication. Thank God that it didn't work. I guess life on the outside is just as hard as life in an institution. At least I'm not running away with a needle in my hand again. The veins of ( Read more... )

Winter Playground ( Read more... )

Well I made it through another week and I'm feeling a little bit better about myself. My low self esteem is killing me today. I'm really bored in this institution. The food isn't nothing to be shouting about either. But at least I'm not on the streets anymore, looking for the answers that can never be found. I know this post is a little ( Read more... )

Today I'm in a weird mood. Don't really know if I'm here or not? Its a fucking Friday and that is supposed to be a great day and shit. I'm so fucking broke that if someone robbed me they would be practicing. My wallet quit on me. This asshole that I hang out with is always sleeping so all I really do is listen to music. Motherfucker's got a ( Read more... )

Sometimes I hate myself ( Read more... )

Today my sister is having one of her teeth pulled so I'm wishing her the best. I was at a graduation last night and it made me feel really deserted and alone. A lot of people had their friends, wives, kids, and whoever else supports them in their "happy" life. I was standing there alone in a suit which is not what I'm comfortable in. My ( Read more... )

My life is a queef after an over-the-hill prostitute commits beastiality with a clydesdale horse in a 25.00 a night motel on the sabbath sunday ( Read more... )