i'm going to start writing in here again. maybe it'll help with my stress. I don't know.

alright well. i didn't sleep last night. it sucked, i have these big bags under my eyes. i was on the phone with kristian. after that i couldn't call josh, even though i was longing for him. seriously he's like a drug, i start like going through withdrawls! i'm going back to texas. i gotta. i just dont know what to tell kristian about josh. i've ( Read more... )

Lol, this song is fucked up. haha. Anyways, I haven't written in a while, but I found time. I'm sick. It sucks, I dont know where I got sick but okay. I think I got Josh and Afton sick too. Whatever. Well I feel happier now. I got my period, so I'm not worried about being pregnat anymore. Let's see... umm I called Kristian, asked him if he was ( Read more... )

Hey there. Well today I did -nothing-. The brats were home because of the weather, it was SOOO cold, like -10. I was talking to my friend, Don, and I accidently slipped in telling him about Tom and I. We started talking about it and it made me really upset, like I did something wrong when I know I didn't. I felt really dirty..soo... I cut. It made ( Read more... )

changed my mind. here: read this, it took a while.

Weird thingy=)

[Current Clothes]   oo I look cute today.. ugg boots, cute skirt, black tee, pink von dutch hat. J

[Current Mood] Happy..=)

[Current Music] Techno, Afyton is listening to.

[Current Taste] A pizza.

[Current Make-up] eye liner, mascara, eye shadow, powder and lip gloss.

[Current ( Read more... )

-yawn-, I'm tired. I'm going to take a nap after I finish writing. Hmm, I like this song a lot. Kenny Chesney is hot, and such a good singer. Tom is comming home soon. After I see him, we're off to Texas. (not immediatly, a couple days). I'd like to go back to NYC. I love it there. Maybe Kristian will come move there with me! I wish I was older, I ( Read more... )

Last Cigarette:  couple minutes ago

Last Alcoholic Drink: I had some sky blue

Last Car Ride: with Aftyon, picking up my sisters.
Last Kiss: Do pecks sound? I kissed Afton then.
Last Good Cry: Today..=(
Last Library Book checked out: ? I can’t remember
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: ug, Elf!
Last Movie Rented: Identity
Last Cuss Word Uttered: FUCK=)
Last ( Read more... )

Personal
[Name]: Sydney
[Birthday]: March 18th
[Siblings]: 4 sisters, 1 stepsister, 2 brothers and 1 stepbrother! Haha

Linzy 20, Brittany and Brooklyn 13, Ciara 5. Alya 12. Skylar 23, Jayden 18. Alix 2.
[Hair color]: Dirty Blonde
[Eye color]: Blue
[Height]: 5’4”-5’5”
[Been kissed]: Of Course =)
[Been in love]: Yep. I am Right now
[ ( Read more... )

Well, what to say what to say. I suppose not much. My life is so fucked up it's not even worth writing about it. I started cutting, again. I started doing drugs, again. Why? Because I have no self control. It's fucking scary. I have no idea where I'm going, what I'm doing and it's terrifying. I blame Kellie and Kevin, my parents. It's their fault ( Read more... )

I started cutting. I'm so ashamed of myself. I don't even know why I did it. I just decided "HEY my life is shitty, so I'll make it even more shitier by hurting myself!" It felt good, really really good though. I need to find another way to relieve my stress. I told Afton she's going to help me.