its not like i have bad luck or anything, its just that nothing ever works in my favor.

so the best part of my summer was supposed to be attending a cocktail party with the game and bone, ex head of the crips. neither of them showed up. had the game showed up, he would totally let me be one of his video hos.

i was on the bus today and this man came and sat with us and was guessing stuff about us. when he got to me he said that i was mean and cold spirited, and 16.
AM I MEAN AND COLD SPIRITED???

so this friday my parents and i are having a meeting with my school dean to discuss my health and social life...

i fucking hate crossroads.

i really hate my life. im not just saying that for pity or attention, i actually really, reaaaally hate my life. i am also very emotionally fragile right now.

i burnt my fingers really badly yesterday and now it looks like i have these two huge ready-to-pop warts on my fingers. its so disgusting

the back to normal that i was looking for was totally not how it turned out. all i want is how it was when i wanted it to go back to how it was. this isnt how its supposed to be and its too much for any person to stomach. im flustered

i painted on dead fish today in science class

ive gotten back into my old habits of disliking everyone and keeping little to no contact with people
it feels so great

so the monday i was waiting for never actually happened.
oh, and fuck turning everything around. i like it just fine