Rafael is about to turn me into a lesbian 😑

My patient just got called a bitch by his mom 😂😂😂. Sometimes I love Hispanics/Latinos.

I just wished to be killed when I got in the car and I nearly got t-boned at the intersection. Good to know God is listening lol

Sometimes I feel like I made a mistake, but I know that's not true and I'm exactly where God wants me to be. Too many "coincidences". Idk if He wants me to get married and have kids, idk if I even want that really. Should I go back to school and get my master's? I know He'll lead me in the right direction.

I'm worried that I'm not even gonna have kids. Or a husband. Lol not even a boyfriend. But I trust God. With all my heart. I know I shouldn't worry. I won't worry. God is bigger than any and all worries I'll ever have. Bigger than that monster that follows me everywhere forever lurking never attacking, I call it anixety. We used to be friends. ( Read more... )

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I don't care if my patient starts acting up like Mom and Rafael do. I don't care if Rafael imitates my work life. I don't care if he doesn't act in a way that gives me comfort. I don't have expectations of anyone's behavior anymore. I no longer seek any kind of harmony with how I'm being treated. It is a reflection of them not me. I know, because ( Read more... )

Sometimes I realize all the negative narcissistic bullshit Rafael put me thru and just how toxic and abusive it was. Sometimes I think it's cultural too. I think also alot of it is learned behavior plus first born birth order. Nevertheless, in a way it has made me so much stronger when dealing with the rest of the assholes of the world.

You know, ( Read more... )

so about that water fast, i'm finally starting it for real this time. a 37 day fast up until feb. 28th is the goal. i'm only working part-time and going to school part-time, so it's still highly attainable. i'm really trying to work on myself and being more careful about the energy i emanate, so i attract the kind of guy i want. i don't want hook ( Read more... )

it's been nearly a year now, and i've been 'working' up to this 40 day water fast. the longest i've done so far is 6 days back in october. so now i'll be fasting may 29 - june 13. then a 2 day break for dad's visit, and back again june 16 - jul 9. i'm nervous, but what better time since i filed for unemployment and school doesn't start for another ( Read more... )