My mom told me the other night that she's ready to die. I had already known that though. This is so hard for me to deal with. But I know she's tired of being sick and she realizes that her mind is going. I can't imagine what that is like for her. She's declining so quickly now, I really don't think she's gonna make it to the end of the year. The ( Read more... )

I couldn't get out of the house on Tuesday, so I had to wait until today. Which was killing me, but ya know, you wait four years for something, another two days isn't so bad ( Read more... )

Ah...I'm going to the Hampton's this afternoon to visit my sister. Boy do I need the break. I dropped mom off at the nursing home yesterday so I didn't have to stress about getting her all checked in the same day of my flight. What a relief to come home and not have to deal with her. Oh, I know that sounds horrible, but having to deal with dementia ( Read more... )

I have had it. I have nothing left. I'm so sick of taking care of my mother. I'm sick of cleaning up after her, feeding her, dealing with soiled diapers, doing laundry all the time, getting frustrated every single day, having no money, having no life. I feel like I hate her. She's not my mother anymore. Just this illness, which is awful. I had a ( Read more... )

Netflix. My friend sent me an invitation to a month free trial, so I figured what the heck? Wow. They have so many Asian horror films, I thought my head would explode. Now, I watch stuff on my puter while I'm waiting for my dvd's. There are sooo many things I want to see! And she gave me 2 more months free for my birthday! *Squeeeee ( Read more... )

I never want to hear anyone say snakes are dumb again...unless my boy is just gifted. :D ( Read more... )

A friend of mine moved back to this area recently and is again working at the store where we used to work together. I said I would visit her there when I had a respite day. So I decided to go on Thursday, and bring Robert along. I thought she would like him. I was wrong. She freaked out and wouldn't get within 6 feet of us. I was somewhat taken ( Read more... )

I finally watched Saturday's episode of Primeval. The creature was very scaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaary! Big scary monster!

So another aggravating day in my life. My mother is driving me nuts as usual. I'm bored out of my mind. And shitty things around the house are going wrong, and I can't fix them by myself because I have no clue what to do ( Read more... )

Robert has not been himself for a few days. He's been soaking all day (and he isn't in shed), and he's been a bit listless. I've benn wanting to find a vet for him before something went wrong, but didn't get around to it. It wasn't that easy finding a vet that has experience with boas, but I found one and she seems really terrific ( Read more... )