Hello, My old friend, Rejection. I thought that I kicked you out of my life. Now, you are back spoiling completely my Spring Break. I hope that you die in a fire ( Read more... )

It just figures. I was happy for a little bit. Really enjoying life and what I was doing. School has some politicking going on and had some points of stress with students, but it was still working. Students were improving their reading skills and most likely scores. Progress and it was exciting! Anime and Manga Club was fun and we had a core group ( Read more... )

I wish I was fearless. That I didn't have these anxieties and worries. That I didn't let my doubts break into my heart. That I could go out and try new things and speak to people. That I could be open with people. My words are peanut butter stuck in my throat. I've felt evil. I've felt its presence in my life and yet I'm still afraid of so many ( Read more... )

I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know how to quote explain it all. It's something that I don't think that people who aren't teacher would understand. I know that in my brain that I will be able to make it to Friday, but Friday feels so far away. I have so much work to do over break. I've come this far and I feel exactly how I felt when I started last ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've been on here. I've thought about posting once or twice, but I thought that the venting wouldn't help me focus on the positive things in life. Somethings over the last month have hurt me. I'm trying to reconcile a few things. It's not easy. The realization hit that I really needed to use my voice even if nothing changed. ( Read more... )

The fight for optimism is hard battle, but certainly worth it. I think that I'm allowed to be a mopey for a day or two and then time to move onto the next thing. Car problems again seem so out of control. Everyone is saying that I should get a car, but I want to save up and get a car. I don't want to spend five years on loans. I want to get a down ( Read more... )

Becky and I are going to be hosting two panels at OsFest! The first one is free candy for Mad Scientist. We will fund your next doomsday device with candy since candy equal currency in the panel. It's interactive. I hope that people will participate in it. We've got stuff so people can make a drawing or make a model. Our evil organization is MOLE ( ( Read more... )

Glad to be back in Omaha. It was quite the adventure to get back home, but I made it! Yay! Had some good quality time with some friends over the last few days. I'm gonna really focus on the positive right now. I don't want to be part of any of this drama. I refuse to be sucked in by anything right now. My arms are so pink. I'm back in Omaha one day ( Read more... )

I am so pissed off. No one will step up and help out? That's totally what I was afraid of. This is getting to be a disaster. I should not plan any more events because something is always going wrong. It's not my fault that this Nebraska weather is so unpredicatable. I warned the others that I wouldn't make it to the rain date and people said that ( Read more... )

Why do people get obsessed over drama? Drama is not good and can hurt people. It's hard when people that you know kind of get thrown into things. My advice is to detach yourself and don't get sucked in. Don't respond. Just withdraw. Though it's easy for me. I've had practice on ducking and covering. Bite your lips and in the end it's just easier to ( Read more... )