horrible life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmYWmpT0Nko

http://www.new-astrology.com/index.php?page=natal&command=show&index=465759

last night, worse. a sort of dry delivery, blank stare

i brought wine to the evening. not wise entirely
i wont do that again

well i probably will.

all i wish for is to be happy & not mind what has happened: how ridiculous is that

today was ridiculous - first, indecision, then bad decision. then 2 hours of everything nice.  then 2 hours of confusion.  ( Read more... )

the boy is 12 and wears silver shades that give him a kinda matrix look ( Read more... )

i am delightfully aware what all this pleasantry is about. this is a peaceful streak in the middle of things. its been some years already. how long do i have? it is odd to ask that without anxiety ( Read more... )

http://happydays.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/08/23/the-self-thinking-thought/Read more... )

41%
Albuquerque Dating

nearly two years after this charcoal sketch of a womans face enhanced by pastels, some - nearly two years after razoring a strange white lily out of a newspaper, leo and i found out why i kept that flower exactly where i did - carefully on that sketched face, under another 1 in middle of whole stack of stuff packed in a basket - and why - to paste ( Read more... )

its true she has got the standards of her birth, class, and function, but she is a lady. even with sex tape, & the other bad behaviors documented by MEDIA, she still smiles little smile & never appears surprised or off her guard