went to school.
Zeline's shirt smells like undescribable fecal matter.
walked around.
told mrs. feller sbout sara and I's "special bond"
cassie said "i think i smell pot, or something herbal" during chorus.
walked home.
now i'm thinking.
pfff.
get me out of my head!!!

CASSIE CAME BACKIE!!! yay for her! i missed her. my prom dress is almost finished. it is bee eyyy ayy you tea full

i've decided i pick at everything. pick! pick! pick! i also think either way tooo much or not nearly enough. but i am so grateful for my life that it makes me ashamed that i was willing to throw it all away. i am grateful for my friends and family and all the relationships i have had even if they hurt me. I have many many battles left to fight ( Read more... )

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going to rochester today and tommorro to make the movie thingy. yay for 6 hours in the car!!!!!!!!!! it's going to be weird being there. in the last 2 nights i had a dream that i was 148lbs and last night a dream i was 104lbs. it was odd. i'm really sick of being preoccupied by this weight b.s. it's driving me even more insane. i want to ( Read more... )

holy god damn. today was fun...josh, elaina, and sara came over. watched Garden State. it was interestingish. went for a walk. poked a muscrat...pulled on it...spanked it..ripped out it's fur. poor little dead smelly rodent. then josh and i went up to my grandparents house b/c they came home from Florida after being there 3 months. i missed ( Read more... )

ryan and mom are fighting...welcome home i suppose. such utter and complete bullshit. i thought josh died but it turned out he is in syracuse on a romantic vacation with elaina. lmao. this vacation has been really b-o-r-i-n-g so far, dayna spent the night last night and was really crabby, i went for a bike ride to Indian River, and went to h20 ( Read more... )

have to go to meeting in hospital about ryan. should be....interesting.
lots of fun.

i kind of feel like everyone i ever loved has died, and i don't know why.