As much as I would like to say that I dont...

I think about you all the time

It just hasnt been the same since you left

I was in love...madly...and happy

And you just left me...in the dark...alone.

I'm still getting over it every single day

Well, although its only been a couple weeks since my last post, I have been feeling a lot better since my regular schedule at work started. Chad and I have been doing well...I am actually happy to see him all the time now...for the most part, except of course when I am hammered after a night in the old port and I am yelling and screaming about ( Read more... )

Watching Jessi get married makes me realize...everyone takes life at their own pace...Jessi had kaydance when she was 19...and 2 years later found matt...who adores her and Kay. Took her a while and even though it's not the perfect family...she's the happiest woman on the planet today. I've got to learn how to be happy with myself and what my life ( Read more... )

Its just a feeling you get when you know that its not going to last forever...when you know that this isnt the person you were meant to spend the rest of your life with. Its a feeling you get when you see pictures of high school sweethearts, or college sweethearts, or people who have been married for 50 years...you know that person is not the one ( Read more... )

I just want to go...move away...preferably to Florida...I am missing everything with Braydon, and even more, I miss Jenn. EVEN MORE...I miss having a normal life. I like to think that I could stay with Chad forever and be happy, but fact of the matter is that I havent been ultimately happy for a long time. There is a few problems with this however ( Read more... )

It absolutely crushes my heart to know that he might have another girl in his life...as his girlfriend...her comments look like shes his girlfriend, but both status say single...I know I shouldnt even be looking any more...but im dying inside. Although it makes me feel better to know that she just had a baby, and that shes making her income as a ( Read more... )

I forgot to tell that I saw Jeffrey once again...and this past time was probably the last time... I talked to his wife Mollie....long story short, I think Jeff and my friendship is over. I'll miss him...leaving CCJ, I cried the minute I walked out the door...thinking I lost one of my greatest friends...This guy was there for it all...The break up ( Read more... )

I am just so overwhelmed with negativity....I dont know what happened. I used to be a positive person...and ever since Ck has been out of my life, everything is so negative ( Read more... )

Its still bad...I think every day that its getting better...but its not. I still cant stand being with someone with an ex wife and children...I am still negative towards the boys, I still wake up every morning thinking "what is the meaning to my life?"...I still hate what is going on in my life right now...I'm starting to lose sight of who I really ( Read more... )

It was really good to see Jeff. He always tries to help me make sense of everything... And when all is going wrong, he turns into that best friend I need. Good to see you again. I'm glad you didn't get too far away