when i break down and make a soun you cant hear me

[mollyelliott]

hoday has been a crazy day. the only other day i can remember that is anything remotely close to this was when i was nine years old and i had an anxiety atack before school, so i didnt go. today was like that day plus ten thousand. i woke up witha sunken heart and a weird feeling in my brain. i cried or the the majority of the day. all i want is

Comments

[serendipity91]

molly dont be upset i know how you feel....i wish i could just end it all sometims but then i realize i have to be stronger....

To live would be an awfully big adventure....

[ricer_04]

Molly, you can't let this thing beat you. Beat it. Kick its ass all the way to the fucking moon. Tell all this depression bullshit to sod off raise your head up and face it straight in the eyes. I think once you do this you'll realize what I have known all along-- you ARE the strong person that you sometimes don't think you are. Sometimes it takes an outside person to tell you...so I'm telling you. The Molly I knew in HS and MS and the one I saw on Fri are two different ppl caught in one person's brain and heart. BUT... the one I know and I have known for longer....the one who was strong and always there; the one who would do whatever she could to make u happy even if she ended up spreading herself too thin...that Molly will kick the other Molly's ass. Then we can laugh and talk and try to regain a state of semi-normalcy. Not everything will go back to how it was, but it's not supposed to

One Step Away

[ricer_04]

This reminded me of you:

I’m down and losing faith
I can’t catch a break
That’s where I am

And everyday is longer it seems
And I’m losing my dreams
Along the way

The world can be so mean to me…

All I want
So much more
Like a place on the dance floor
I’m only one step away

And I’m falling apart
As I walk through the dark
But I’ll start over today
I’m one step away

I know I’m not blind
But I can’t see a future
Unless I change my mind
Unless I decide

That all this comes right down to me…

All I want
So much more
Like a place on the dance floor
I’m only one step away

And I’m falling apart
As I walk through the dark
But I’ll start over today
I’m one step away, one step away

But tomorrow’s a new day
And I’m fighting my way back again
As soon as I let me I’ll prove this is all in my head

‘Cause I want
So much more
like a place on the dance floor
I’m only one step away
And I’m falling apart
As I walk through the dark
But I’ll start over today
I’m one step away
A scared step away

~Frickin' A: "One Step Away"

To my Mols

[anonymous]

Molly it is crazy how things have changed since I've moved back. I wish I were there to help you through this, or to totally avoid what happened from happening. Well we can't sit around thinking about what we could have done, so quit looking back! L.T. doesn't want to admit or acknowledge what he did, so don't let it get to you like it has been. You're admitting to what you've done and you're willing to get help. You're such a strong person and deserve to have the best support system ever....ME!
Love you soooo much, Ash J