I hate that you ignore me. Did I do something wrong? I hate feeling this way. You know you could talk to me anytime here. Atleast tell me to fuck off or something. I dont like this limbo aspect. Its driving me crazy. Mel just talk to me.

happy still. a little giggly and feelin hardcore like junior high. but its fun. it's nice to be needed. when you heart hurts so much that you dont know if it will ever find a way to live again its nice to just have someone around that understands and lets you cry when you need to. its not been very long and yet it feels like forever, so each day it ( Read more... )

Happy, gleeful, excited, giggly....all these new feelings. Its nice to not be so sad. Its definately nice not to be hurting right now. It's nice to know that new things can be nice. Maybe I shouldnt fear everthing.New stuff isnt that bad for now atleast.

I'm sad today. I guess its just one of those days. Maybe I didnt get enough sleep, maybe I'm just a little lonely. Either way I'm sad and feeling yucky. I just want to curl up in my bed but that kind of only makes me feel worse. I just feel yucky. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I hope.

So theres not alot to say about campus life. I'm confused everyday and each day hurling myself through the window sounds like a great idea. The only things that keep me sane are CSI, the boy with tight pants, making fun of Milou, and the hope that love might still exsist somewhere in the world. I hate being unsure and I never quite know if the ( Read more... )

Yeah so I was home this weekend. I said hello to no one. I guess it doesnt matter to much no one says hello to me either. Time for class. Bye

Well I thought I should do some catch up for those whom I havent seen in the past 3 weeks. Classes are going well nothing too exciting except for my Humanities class which I enjoy greatly. I tried out for the fall play and will find out tomorrow if I made it or not. I'm thinking not because their were many applicants for this part. Anyway the boy ( Read more... )

So yeah its over now. And I thik I am okay. Well maybe not but it really hasnt hit me yet that this is the real end. I guess before there was hope and now theres nothing so its all squished in my head. Time to start another day I guess. Day by day right well who knows if thats right or not. I sure as hell dont. I guess this is supposed to mean no ( Read more... )

I'm leaving in two days. I dont want to pack, packing is no fun. I have toooooooooooo much stuff.

Man my dad just came home and he is fricken wasted. What a night. I hope he doesnt puke in the sink like he did last time yuck. Right now he's face down in the bed mumbling about something or another. Oh geez. Crazy papa. Anyway--------
MELANIE ELIZABETH WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO SEE YOU BEFORE I LEAVE........