I hate the winter, but i love the cold. I always get depressed in the winter for no reason. Maybe because i look the year over, and i look back over the past year and think about how much I sucked at it. just when i thought i had this stuff beat, and i was on the right track it pops outs and fucks it all. Maybe I am not meant to spend my days here ( Read more... )

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

I am in the largest struggle right now. Its like being in a close combat, hand to hand all out war with the worst monster you can imagine. And it wont end till you kill it. Catch is its every second of everyday.

I give my life to all of you. Friend, Family, or Stranger.

I'm not ashamed this is who I am. It empowers me more to hear you curse my name. Every step I take is a step away from this and a step closer to being me again. I think its time to rethink the word friend again. The fake smiles and laughs are wearing thin on my eyes when I've never done anything wrong to you. The truth hurts but so do knives in the ( Read more... )

Not people of a certain society, race, or gender, but rather just pure human nature is so complex and yet at the same point absolutely fascinating. Humans as a whole strive for better existence, whether it be monetary, spiritually, etc.... However its preprogrammed in our basic instincts, its a natural thing and its bloody brilliant and beautiful ( Read more... )

Someone just asked me what I would do with one wish. My wish, destroy the world. Everything on this world to dust. Thats the way it was in the beginning. And we had to came along and fucked it, all of it.

LETDOWN!

Jeez, I really am beginning to wonder what the fuck am I still doing here. Fuck it, time to learn to fight, forage, and survive. Peace out. Hope you can catch me, because by the time you read this I'll have covered 100's of miles ahead. Its time to stare death in the face. Freedom is worth dying for.

Once again, I can sense trouble out there. Its out there lurking. I hope, no I pray it doesn't happen. But as far as prayers go, it sounds as if the phone line to up there is dead.

dead end road.

Some times you have to take breaks from things, and well fucking lj was one of them ( Read more... )

This weekend has been the hardest one of my life. I am swirling in downward spiral of flames right now. I don't even know where to begin nor how to tell the tale. My best friend in the world is gone. I found him when he was a pup and he had been neglected, I showed him that there people in this world that do have the ability to love. I confided in ( Read more... )