So we were hanging out for about an hour or so today, and when he went to leave I nearly burst into tears. I had the tears forming and he had to spend an extra few minutes trying to make me laugh or smile. :-P Either I'm much more attached to him than I think or I'm much more stressed out than I think.

And I love being made to feel like a total failure by other people too.

I love feeling like we're each at a different point in the relationship. I love feeling like we're both looking for something different at this point. I love feeling like I'm being a demanding bitch for wanting to move to another level at some point - and being the only one who does. I love it ( Read more... )

Lately, I've been feeling like CRAP. Snappish and mean and bitchy, not wanting to talk to almost anyone. I've been EXHAUSTED, no matter how much sleep I get, I've had pounding headaches, been almost disoriented or lightheaded quite a bit, my joints/body aches, even my chest at times feels kinda painful (not bad painful but enough to make me think ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like you wanted and needed someone in your life more frequently than they want and need you in theirs? That you'd like nothing more than to have them be a more major part in your life, and yet feel like you come second in theirs? And then you start to wonder if the problem is with you, if you're just getting clingier and more ( Read more... )

Currently working at Kohls only again. Circuit City kept pissing me off - not really following my availability, stupid break schedules (why do I need an hour break when I'm schedule 9:45 - 3?!), that sort of thing. So now, back to Kohls while job hunting for a REAL job ( Read more... )

So I'm now working at Kohl's and at Circuit City. I still <3 Kohl's more, but Circuit City gives me more hours which I NEED. Even though I still feel like I have a lot to learn, and really, especially the past few days, I just have the urge to QUIT, so far I need and it's going okay so far ( Read more... )

I have a CRAPLOAD of homework to do. Insane amounts. I've been slacking horribly this week. This weekend I have two days off and I WILL be focusing on the homework when I get the chance. That's all there is to that. No other choice. And hopefully get where I should be, as well as started on some papers ( Read more... )

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE DAAAAAAAAAAAAVE!!!!

New Years Resolutions!!

I've never bothered with these before because let's be honest, people rarely stick to them. But I have a list this year and I'm hoping maybe to go through with them. Some are simple, some are not.

1. Read 50 books at least by next January. I <3 reading and have fallen away from it in recent years but I'm learning to love ( Read more... )