The night started off good. Josh came over here, went and got me something to eat (he had already eatten with his family) came back here...ate...shot some pool then went to Jax for a movie. Came back and went to his place. you guys are going to think i'm a horn dog, but i wanted to fool around a little bit. Well we ended up not, and i got a little ( Read more... )

Well Friday night was normal for us. We acted like we always act. So I thought ok...it might be ok. Now Saturday night...I texted him twice and call 3 times, and now it's Sunday and I still haven't heard from him. I know he was out drinking with some of his friends, so now I'm either upset cause he's avoiding me, or worried cause I'm praying ( Read more... )

I was right. He's wanting to date other people as well. So i guess I will be to. For some reason...I'm not happy about this.

I should never update about the Josh situation...cause usually when I say things are good...things go bad. I don't know if it's totally bad right now...but I think he is wanting to date other people. Like keep it an open relationship. Which is fine with me, as long as he tells me. let me tell you what happened tonight ( Read more... )

So I thought while I had time I'd update. Things with Josh are good. just kind of playing things out. I believe we are officially dating now. Atleast he keeps saying we are. lol He still getting over his ex. I think it's mainly cause she won't go away. They had built a life together within the 4 years they were together...almost married and such. ( Read more... )

So yeah...Josh and I are taking a 3 day trip together at the end of the month I guess...to my cousin's wedding in North Carolina. Leaving Friday after he gets off work, stoping to spend the night in Savanah, GA...then sat going to NC for the wedding...and coming home Sunday. 3 straight days of being with him...makes me happy and scared at the same ( Read more... )

for right now things are back to happy land. it's still a bumppy road but i'm basically there. lol

you know they could write a soap opera about my life...and it would actually probably be a hit. lol ( Read more... )

I can't act strong anymore. I miss him so much and it's only been a day. I haven't seen him. i've talked to him and maybe that was a bad idea cause it only made me miss him more. I want him to hold me again. I felt safe there...safe and happy. And it's all taken away from me. The only thing I ever wanted was to be happy...and when I finally was, ( Read more... )

I guess my happiness lasted long enough ( Read more... )