It's 645am...and if you know me...i shouldn't have to function this early. lol But it makes me think about stuff ( Read more... )

I didn't think it would happen but things are ok. Josh and I's friendship is good. Yeah I'm still dealing with the issue of not being about to have him. But I'm dealing. And getting my old sarcastic self back. It is great. lol He tries to out do me...but you can't. He should stop trying lol. I am the queen of sarcism...and it's great. I went to his ( Read more... )

Things suck. I hate when things change. I have finally realized that i will never have Josh as I want him. He is and will always be just a friend now. Something I have to come to terms with...and i'm not liking it too much right now. I feel really alone. I know i'm not...and that i have people to turn to. But I still feel really alone. I guess that ( Read more... )

this weekend was interesting. the wedding was boring and poorly put together...but we were there to support brian. so i guess that's what matters.

next trip i drive myself. never again in the car with my mom and bro for 6 hours and my mom not letting me drive. Nope not happening again.

i'll update in detail maybe later. head out. and wanted to ( Read more... )

for the weekend. Cousin's wedding in North Carolina. 7-8 hours in the car, with my mom and my bro. God save me lol.

see ya on the flip side.

Big HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders tonight. And I'm sooooooooooooooooo happy about it. lol (Brian, you know what this is about ( Read more... )

Last night turned out interesting. We went to the show. First off...we went to eat at Panera. He paid...which he wasnt suppose to but oh well. Then went to best buy. then to the mall...had to get my dad some reef flipflops...though they are the wrong size and i have to take them back. but anyways...it was pretty normal. I was worried it was going ( Read more... )

Josh and I pretty much hit the peak last night. He came to my work after he got out of class. It was like minutes before closing. It was ok though cause I didn't expect to see him so it was nice. Then said he was hungry so I suggested going to denny's. We did. But things felt weird for some reason. Well we finish, and we leave. When we are going to ( Read more... )

things are ok. I'm dealing with the josh thing. I think i'm dealing with it better because i have someone else to talk to. And I think we are going to dinner on Monday. Not sure yet though. He seems really nice, and he's actually lives in tally but is here for the semester cause he took off of school. Goes to FSU...which is a plus for me. lol ( Read more... )

I don't think I can take this anymore. I mean we ended things so badly last night, though I talk to him on the phone for a little bit..and then explained myself online. But I haven't heard from him tonight. I did today for a split second, but it's like he's not wanting to talk tonight. And I know i'm probably not going to see him tomorrow cause he' ( Read more... )