Why do relationships have to be so confusing. David isnt talking to me now. I have no idea why either. i feel empty. i feel like i cant please anybody. its as if everything i do is wrong. why does my life have to fall apart, then repair itself, only to fall apart again? so many ppl try to be incouraging, but it just makes me feel worse. I hate that ( Read more... )

Ok, so i stayed home from school yesterday. i thought i got sick in mexico, but i accually have ALLERGIES!!! go me!!! the only thing is is that i've never had allergies before so i didn't know the difference. i had a doctors appointment this morning so they gave me a perscription for flonase and robutussin. so i'm feeling better. i'm happy that i'm ( Read more... )

I just got home from church like 20 min ago. it was totally stupid, i had to stand outside my house for like 10 min waiting for someone to open the door but no one did. i sat there ringing the door bell and knocking really loud. i hate my family sometimes, they are so unobservant ( Read more... )

YAY!!!!! I'M HOME!!!!! this is so great! i missed being at home. mexico was fun, but i was miserable the whole time. i missed max and i wasn't with any of my close friends. i got to talk to alyssa and david while i was there, so that was cool. alyssa offered to pay me money if i yelled oaks name really loud through out the camp, but since i don't ( Read more... )

Bye Every1! I leave to the middle of no where, Mexico. There's a major part of me that doesn't want to go. I'm going to miss my friends and my mommy. But most of all i'm ging to miss my Maxy. I reseaved some very good advise on how to deal with my feelings for him. some1 told me to just tell him how i feel, but tell him that i don't want to hear it ( Read more... )

Well, I leave for Mexico day after tomorrow. I don't think I even want to go now. I know I sound so stupid, but I don't want to be away from Max for that long. I'm really really going to miss him so much. Why do I have to leave him for such a long time. I'm really going to hate this. I want to just stuff him in my bag and steal him. then i won't ( Read more... )

OK, I'm sooooo bored right now. I went to church this morning and then my mexico meeting, and now i have nothing to do. I should probably do my HW, but i don't really feel like it. I'm so bored that i went through looking for song lyrics to print out. I'm sooo fucking bored. i also filled out like over a hundred different memes just because I'm so ( Read more... )

so last night max and i went and saw blood brothers at school. that is like, the greatest play i have ever seen. but then again...i havent seen very many. but i'll bet tis the best i'll ever see. Kory and Zak did such an awesome luarious amazing fantastic job!!! i could really feel the mood of the characters. great job guys!!

i had another good day. i have so much hw this weekend though. but thats ok, its fine. i intend to do it this time. i don't really have that much to say today. i don't even know why I'm writing. I'm just happy i guess. :)! I helped samy move the past 3 days and I'm helping her again tomorrow. I'm such a good friend. Max wants me to go see Blood ( Read more... )

I'm in such a bitchy mood right now. i have really bad allergies so i take my meds and they make me so fucking tired that i fell asleep during so many classes. i hate myself for doing it too ( Read more... )