i've dealt with sadness all my life. from the time i was young i was depressed, unhappy with life at 16. fucking 16. so much could have changed, so much could have been accomplished, SO MUCH. and i sit here with almost the exact same mentality as i had when i was 16. wtf? i could blame this on any number of things, but what does it all come down to ( Read more... )

if i am so god damn important at work, and they just can't live without me, why the fuck do i feel like just another employee???

will all this hard work really pay off like they say it does?

wow, it's been quite some time since i've updated ( Read more... )

so yesterday i wasn't feeling much like writing. that's ok... i don't really feel like writing today either ( Read more... )

blaaaaaaaaaaaaargetty blah blah ( Read more... )

i applied for a part time position at caffe ladro for an entry level baker ( Read more... )

and i sit here at work waiting for the right time to go... does anyone else see something wrong with that ( Read more... )

i got a text from my sister this morning asking if i ever woke up wishing i was someone else. for the first time in a long time my immediate answer was no... but not because i am deliriously happy... that shit's for saps, but because i know i could be in another's shoes and i'd still have something negative to say about it. so, here i am... stuck ( Read more... )

literally ( Read more... )

my appt with the shrink went better than expected. i am pleased.
my dr prescribed prozac. i took the first dose this morning.
alea loves my dr cuz of the way she views medication. this makes me happy.