I feel more alone in a crowd of people than I do sitting in a dark closet and the more I want to be included in that crowd the more distance there seems to be between me and everything else. Maybe it's just not the right crowd. What if it never is ( Read more... )

i sometimes think of myself as an automaton. click click whirr. no, not a stepford wife, not an AI bound by Asimov's laws, and not as a simple unthinking construct. thinking in gears and pipes and shiny chrome to get away from the thoughts of flesh and fluids and squishy things. living is gross. it's times like these i bolt down my food to avoid ( Read more... )

it's been awhile since i felt this low. it hurts.

i had a seizure. i'm ok. know your limits. we bought it from a store. K2 Spice, the bubblegum flavor. smells great. tastes nasty. i should've known better. quite a trip afterward but not worth it. hugs.

FAIL

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i've spent too much time watching kids going up the slide and going down the stairs. children spend most of their time pushing at boundaries which seems to be alot of what being human is about but i'm beginning to think that we spend too much time setting boundaries for kids and not enough time in preparing them for what happens when the boundaries ( Read more... )

there's a hole in the screen outside my window. it seems to be a favored hunting ground for lizards since bugs are attracted by the light inside. sometimes small bugs get through the hole. i watched a gecko stalk a trapped lightning bug until it was scared away by a cicada. it made my thoughts wander. brief musings on what it means to be ( Read more... )

two glass vessels broken in two days. makes me nervous.

watched this more than a few times. checking out the site now, playingforchange.com

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need to re-visit New Orleans.
one of these days

so for the past two weeks i've been sick with this mutated flu zombie cold beast. it's all like "RAAAAAARRRRR!" and I'm all "You. Shall. Not. Pass!" and there were goblins and midget tossing and totally awesome special effects ( Read more... )