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monkytrainr Nov 28, 2005 22:45

I turn 20 on Friday, make that Saturday.

I like it when people call me "this one," or "kid," because I like to feel like I'm a kid. I want to be a kid forever. When I hit the big 2-0, that shit will be over. No longer a teenager, no more excuses. What am I going to do? I'm actually really scared of this lame, useless age. Fuck it; what am I going ( Read more... )

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monkytrainr Nov 18, 2005 14:51

I'm lazy and sad.
But it's okay, cuz Liz is coming for the Sex Toy Party. This should surely expand my horizons, and they need some expanding. (It's like a Tupperware party, except with sex toys. Nothing kinky going on, really. At least I hope to god not).

Burt's Bees Beeswax Lip Balm.

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monkytrainr Nov 06, 2005 12:20

I need to start taking my meds, regular doses on a regular basis. I will feel like shit/crazy less often. I'm not sure why I do it to myself; perhaps my masochistic side sometimes defeats the sane side and it makes me stop taking the meds when things start to get too close to normal ( Read more... )

depression

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monkytrainr Oct 24, 2005 03:59

The familiar, torturous insomnia is back for tonight. It's four in the morning. If this is the signal of a return into another extended episode of insomnia, I swear to god I'll kill myself ( Read more... )

pictures

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monkytrainr Oct 14, 2005 03:28

I was thinking about election night when I got drunk outside of my mind. I sobbed in the arms of several people, tried to jump off the balcony, threw up, and sang "There are No Cats in America," convinced that I was making some kind of political statement about the state of the nation ( Read more... )

Life is a weird thing

monkytrainr Oct 12, 2005 00:18

I honestly never thought my life would be as complicated as it is right now.
How is it so complex and yet so boring at the same time?

I need constant stimulation. I can't even watch TV anymore; it totally doesn't hold my interest.

I made really, really strong coffee and it's making me twitchy ( Read more... )

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monkytrainr Oct 06, 2005 01:34

Go into google and type "[Your name here] needs"...
and then post the five funniest or the ones that ring the most true, or whatever.Jill needs to walk away before any further damage is done ( Read more... )

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monkytrainr Sep 28, 2005 04:38

I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling, so I won't bother trying ( Read more... )

depression

bored, stealin shit from LTP

monkytrainr Sep 21, 2005 16:43

Look at your LJ "interests" list. If you have fewer than 50 interests, pick every fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five interests, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five interests, pick every tenth one. If you have fewer than ten, pick all of 'em. List them on your LJ, and tell everyone exactly what it is about these ( Read more... )

tattoos, mfw

monkytrainr Sep 20, 2005 08:37

I've had a weird couple of days ( Read more... )