The letter from Mary Desler hasn't arrived. It will signal the officiality of me leaving. I am worried it won't show up before I do leave. I am also worried that all my friends resent me for leaving. Zach keeps walking past my door without looking at me. What the hell is up with that ( Read more... )

So taking a cue from Kate, I just chatted with alicebot. I hate how it didn't record the first part of the convo, I'll try to paraphrase ( Read more... )

So it's not just programming. It's fucking everything. I can't focus on anything. I'm doomed to failure. I'm so certain, focused you could say. No answers tomorrow, no answers today. Death? No!

I am back at school. I have hw to do. I do not like this ( Read more... )

I talked with my parents today about the shit. They understood. I guess I should have expected that. I haven't disappointed them. I guess I've only disappointed myself. This trip home is the best idea ever. I feel a lot better, but something is still nagging me from the back of my mind, much like a mother in law in the trunk of a car. It just won't ( Read more... )

Jesus Christ I just found some old emails claire and I had written to each other when she was at college and I wasn't. Soooooo booooooorrrrring. So immature too. I was such an idiot back then. So was she. We actually talked about having kids and stuff. I actually believed it would happen. Fucking fuck fuck I need a god damn rebound. Yes two years ( Read more... )

I am flying home tomorrow! Yaayy! Gillian and I went to the gym tonight! Yayyy! I found the new of Montreal album online! Yayyy! I am going to fail my programming course! Yayyy ( Read more... )

I am miserable. I have a program to start and finish (remember what happened last time?). It is going to uphill the entire way. I have no idea what I'm doing. I thought about jumping off the roof of slivka during class, but then changed it into grabbing onto a branch of that giant tree on the way down. Then running back to my room to sulk and weep ( Read more... )

I am so sick of this program, and I haven't even started.

Gillian I think we might have offended R Metzler by calling P!atD generic. And not liking The Hush Sound. Cause both of them are under his "favorite music". Eesh.