but i do know that if this is what he wants and it's what will make him happy... that's what i wanted all along ( Read more... )

sometimes i don't know why i wake up in the mornings. sometimes i try to fix everything. most of the time i never really feel awake anyway. most of the time i just end up hurting myself.

i tried to make things right... but it seems im in a paradox.

i really don't know what to do.

i just want to dig a hole, get in it, and never come out again.

griffin moved out.

we almost broke up.

taylor is an asshole.

it's been a while ( Read more... )

sometimes im like HECK YES!! I HAVE MY OWN PLACE!! and other times im like... *sigh* im so alone. i haven't decided if i really like it yet.

-griffin and i are official
-i work over 35 hrs a week at hollister, i feel like i live there
-im moving into my apartment in a week(!)

but i can show you better...


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im probably the most retarded person ever ( Read more... )

i hugged jaida.

so... apparently i've been "picked".... but i still don't get what is going on ( Read more... )

so the beach should have been a good time to figure things out... but it wasn't.

im more confused now than i was before.

this is killing me.