I'm in a weird mood this morning. A lot of yearning to see my daughter and many other things right now. I miss normality and being here is starting to feel strange.

1. What swear word do you use the most?
Fuck

2. Do you own an iPod?
It's all about keeping it Zen

3. What person on your flist do you talk to the most?
Probably Oddball

4. What time is your alarm clock set to?
I dunno.

5. Do you still remember the first person you kissed?
Yes.

6. Do you remember where you were on 9/11/01?
I was in Leeds England, living a ( Read more... )

Just over a week now before I have to leave and since the bad news all
I've done is mope and sort and try to get through the days without taking
some form of easy way out. It's starting to feel a lot like I'm always
gonna lose. Everything I've ever tried at turns to shit. I am as far away
from the same person I was when I came here as I can get I think ( Read more... )

November 25th 7:41pm

The days are getting easier
without her but I still have
the bitter taste of loss
lingering in my throat and the
ache of it in my veins.
   With the bus strike now a
week and a half into it's
fruition I find it harder to
let go of Erin, I keep looking
for her car and her face in
her car, any car that passes
that is in any way ( Read more... )

9/11/09 12:14am ( Read more... )

This morning all I can think about is her. Everything I touch, see or think about is pertaining to her. I'm caught in a conflict between mind and heart. My heart is saying that she was the love of my life but my head is saying that I'm smarter than that and that I'm dumb to think that the person that I love (and who has on occasion lied to me) ( Read more... )

So, I caught up with a few people today back home and it made me realise how much I miss Leeds. I think I need to get back as soon as possible.

It was was nice chatting Oddball.

x

The only thing to keep me sane ( Read more... )

I really don't feel well right now and I know for certain I won't sleep as well as I should be tonight, so it's gonna be yet another day of me feeling like crap at work. I so wish I was working right now and not grass cutting. I wish I could make this family a happy one without stresses or arguments or paranoia or housework problems. I just want ( Read more... )

Last night was fucked ( Read more... )