I don't know if anyone else still reads this and at this point I'm almost hoping no one does. I just wanted somewhere besides Myspace to write so I wouldn't get angry messages asking why I'm not letting anyone read my blog or angry messages asking why I'm talking like I am. Today sucked... Mostly with the fact that Alyx is no longer talking to ( Read more... )

Hey sweeties! I'm sorry that I haven't posted in forever but it happens right? I'm just posting to say that a better way to keep in touch with me is probably my myspace. This is my website: www.myspace.com/special_k_11 go ahead and go check it out! Make sure to comment and also read my blogs if you want to find out more of what I've been up to! ( Read more... )

I'm going to take this one slow... there is a lot that could potentially come out that hopefully no one understands but may ask me about if they so choose. Only 4 people know and there could be more one day but I read a journal today and realized how much I've failed... I admit, I've wanted to take my life before... and when it comes down to it I ( Read more... )

Okay... my turn... everyone else seems to be renting today or at least updating... although on myspace... this place is still my baby. I start out my day so full of life and ready to go and by the end of my day I just want to curl up and cry. I'm so tired most of the time and I'm getting sick again. There are a few people that I really wish I could ( Read more... )

I piss myself off everytime I try to make life fair. All the little things add up and I can deal with that... then throw a couple big things in there and I crash. I don't know if I will post this for people to read yet because I don't know what all it's going to say ( Read more... )

I know I haven't updated in awhile but I haven't really had much to say lately. I've done a lot of thinking though both last night and tonight. Why I feel so down right now is beyond me. It's been a really long day though and there is only one thing I truly long for. Don't get me wrong... there are things that I would like but there is something ( Read more... )

I'm having the most amazing night! i have Karen to thank for it too! I love you babes!!!!!! im looking at you right now for the first time and am so happy!!! *sighz* im in love

If I seem stand-offish and withdrawn it's because I am. I really needed those few hours to myself today just browsing through things and not having to discuss what's wrong or how I'm feeling. Not that everyone asking is a bad thing, its just that I hate not having an answer for you guys. There is so much built up. I keep thinking about life and ( Read more... )

Do I let myself fall like this? Why should I? I know that there is more trust here than most others but still... what about the hurt thing? This will be the first real time since Cali. I'm so scared and I don't know why. I'm not one to be afraid of this. I'm the one to just go for it and worry about the hurt later... or am i? I'm questioning myself ( Read more... )

Alright... I had an overall crappy day i think. Work sucked as usual. Inventory is on Thursday so everyone is alittle on edge right now. My feet are killing me and all I can think right now is how badly I need sleep... but there's still that English essay and those math assignments... I just want to curl up with someone and feel loved and safe. I ( Read more... )