I want
to be happy.
I want
to forget.
I want
to forgive.

But it hurts so much that I cry.
It hurts so much that I scream.

When I close my eyes I see the past.  I see what almost was ( Read more... )

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Big black hole
Where my heart used to be.

I feel nothing.
I am nothing.
I will be nothing.

Ungrateful.
Ashamed.
Regretful to be me.

Big black hole
Where my heart used to be.

I do not love.
I start to hate.
I am not me.

Apathetic.
Numb.
Doubting who I am.

Big black hole
Where my heart used to be.

I feel empty.
I feel alone.
I am no one.

Ignored.
Destroyed.
Dead.

Big black ( Read more... )

I feel lost and empty and alone.

No one can hear me
because no one listens.
No one understands me
because no one takes time.
No one realizes my pain
becase no one looks.

I am invisible.
I don't even think that I am me.

Every day-
A new thought.
A new dream.
A new plan.

Can I do this?
What are my limits?
What can I achieve?

The thought was yesterday.
The dream is today.
But tomorrow will be reality.

Everyday-
My life is changing
But my dreams will never cease to be
Unless my dreams become my reality.

All sorts of confused ( Read more... )

I look outside to see some birds flying ( Read more... )

I try to be your friend
But you ignore me.

And everything that you are today
Is a lie.
Its not just me that you betrayed,
But someone else you swore you loved.

Its too late to undo
Everything that has been done.

Friends forever
And now, friends for never.

Looking back
on old friends
I used to have.

Old friends
who were once
my life.

These friends-
no longer people
that I know.

Lost in years
of silence
we never thought
could happen.

Lost in years
of fights
we never thought
could come between us.
Friends lost 
in time
almost forgotten.

Friends we were
and are never
to be again.

A memory
barely even visible
as friendship ( Read more... )