I'm having a weird evening this evening. I feel like writing. Actually, I don't feel like writing as much as I feel like eating something, even though I am not hungry and don't need food right now. Actually, I don't feel like eating as much as I feel like talking to someone, but other than zinging chat messages to L. (who is busy with dinner and ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here with my coffee, the fan is blowing on me but it is not really all that hot. It's been a very pleasant morning, for August, here in Livermore. There are no clouds in the sky. The temperature is in the mid 80's Fahrenheit. I had read "the news" and was making coffee and heard in my head, DJ playing The 5th Dimension's "Wedding Bell ( Read more... )

The lady who is the chief of staff sent me an e-mail this morning to welcome me to The QCC. That would be the Quarter Century Club in the enterprise where I work. I'm not sure what to think about getting this e-mail. She mentions scheduling a virtual meeting with the CEO, virtual only because the company HQ is in Chicago. She continues that I can ( Read more... )

Happy Friday. It's a glorious sunny June day outside as I type this, around 5:00 PM. I have a beautiful view of the San Francisco and Oakland skylines from the fourth floor suite that houses our offices now, but today I am working from home, which also comes with a nice view out of the patio door. The sun is blazing, but it is not particularly hot ( Read more... )

For some reason this evening, Internal DJ decided to start playing Liz Phair: "Extraordinary." I like the song and I went to go find it on YouTube and play it. I used to love hearing it on the radio, when I still listened to the radio. It's funny, I go get videos on YouTube as the go-to, instead of looking them up on Spotify. I suppose it may have ( Read more... )

"It takes a lot of work to grow enough to tolerate intense intimacy and eroticism, and accept that life is both hard and sweet."
- David M. Schnarch, Ph.D Constructing the Sexual Crucible p. 173

Lauralee's homework assignment: go talk to Hoss. Hoss, Prince Lir, Mr. Heart. Why him? Does she expect that part of me to tell me something heretofore unspoken? The conversation concerns what I want. Where is my desire? What is my intention? Does Hoss know these things? I do know one thing: Hoss knows what he likes, when he sees it, but is Hoss ( Read more... )

I had a weird dream this morning before finally getting up and starting the day. It was really short, just kind of a vignette.

I am in the house, but it is not any house I recognize from life. I know it is my home and it feels familiar and "homey" but it is not recognizable as anyplace I've actually lived. It's an older house, maybe Victorian ( Read more... )

It is fascinating to me how I can be talking to someone and if I'm present, and focused, it is possible for me to become aware that I have caught a glimpse of their complexity. I've seen a pattern that has not been completely consciously apparent to me before.

I was talking to L. listening to her complain about some difficulty in communicating with ( Read more... )

I'm 59 years old and I'm two decades divorced from nearly two decades of relationship and marriage to one woman, I'm the father of children grown to adulthood. I'm on a couple of dating apps. I date women roughly my age. It is interesting to read for what women say they are looking, in terms of a relationship.

There are women on these apps who ( Read more... )