I don't know why but things are never easy, for me that is. I have come to find myself in the most interesting places it's as if I want the hard way. I don't love easily and when I do start to love or care for someone I want them to be in my life completely. The problem is right there, it's as if wanting them in my life is always the worst course ( Read more... )

Love

Love is nothing more then a four letter word. So how can four letters turn a persons life upside down? How can four letters mean everything to some and nothing to others?

I have walked my life unclear of what to say, when to go, or when to stay. But I can't help but to wonder how is it that so many people out there live the mirror of me. As ( Read more... )

Have you ever looked at the thinggs going on in your life and wonder if you are where your ment to be?

I just can't help but to wonder what my next cruve ball is going to be. The woman that I cared for if not been in love with for the past two years just told me that she has left the man that she has been with for three years. I know what your ( Read more... )

One thing that I really don't understand today is why are people so crazed on there B-Day? I know your asking what fool is crazy about there B-Day!

Unlike most of the world I never had a brithday party or a card. I grew up a Jehovah's Witness In other words No Holidays what so ever. Not to say that there wasn't love in my house.

My parents taught ( Read more... )

  Confused

Confused am I about my hearts delight.
Wondering if it's wrong or am I right?

Confused am I about who should care
Love or not have a care for in this world.

I'm confused because
The love of my life just doesn't seem
Right when my dark days turn to even
Darker nights wondering about my hearts
True delight.

Confused am I about my hearts desire ( Read more... )

I realized something the other night. For he frist time in the past two year I didn't hurt. I felt no pain, there was no sadness in my heart and that void that had been there is now gone. It's as if the arrow that cupid shot though my heart has finally faded away. But what does that mean does it mean that I'm now over you or that the pain has just ( Read more... )

 I wispher your name in the faintest of winds hopeing that you could hear my last words to you. But you couldn't my words were in vain and my soul will forever be stained with the memory of you.

Sometimes I hear a wispher in my ear as if you were calling out my name. I turn to greet you with a smile and open arms unfortunelly I turn to nothing but ( Read more... )

To Hard

Is it wrong to try hard when it comes to your heart? I never knew that
showing all that you can feel about a person could drive them away.
I thought that it was supposed to bring them near.

You pushed to hard that is all that I hear from you. What does that mean?
That I can't say thethings that I feel because it scares you. How is that
soppused ( Read more... )

Yesterday found someone who was once lost to me. Both my heart and mind jumped with delight because they missed their long lost friend. Yesterday was one of my best friends wedding and was happy for him he is doing his thing I was on cloud nine for him. Although in the back of my mind her face and voice was loud and clear to me. The her was the ( Read more... )

Why Me ( Read more... )