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[moonshadow3561]

I wish I knew what it would take to make me feel content, fulfilled. I feel this constant longing for *something* but for the life of me can't figure out what it is. I get so incredibly bored by everyday life. I thrive on intensity and chaos and extremity of emotion, yet I also know those things destroy me. Is it just a matter of learning to be

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[aroundthemx]

i've related so much to your entries it's scary. i just got out of my second treatment 2 weeks ago. I've learned that spirituality is the only thing that will fill the void. But I need this spirituality to be fucking intense or I will not be fulfilled. So I just keep giving up on it... So. Apparently my problem is faith....lack of trust. See if the answer to some of your questions is Trust. I feel innately different also..I've been skipping meetings because I just don't relate sometimes and that seriously trips me up and sometimes their message feels so harsh (and wrong) I get so turned off and .... ugh. I have to go but I had to write something. I'll pray for you if you pray for me.

love and light,
Chesleigh

[rip_ellen_west]

Why do you think you're not sick now