I can finally say that I've managed to find a glimmer of hope in this otherwise dreadful life I have been living lately. Everything seemed to pile upon me all at once (as it always seems to do). My social life diminished in a matter of days, college courses started kicking my ass, people screwed me over, Keith screwed me over (again), I was smoking ( Read more... )

I hate when people assume that as soon as I get high I become a therapist. Everyone decides to open up to me and tell me their darkest confessions and how they really feel about me after I have smoked a few bowls. They do this either because they think I won't remember it the next morning or because they think I'll be too stoned to be able to give ( Read more... )

I literally don't know what to think/believe about anything anymore ( Read more... )

Summer is basically over and I'm already back at school. This summer was similar to last year's, but not quite as good. Almost, but not quite. However, I did hit a few milestones in my life that though I regretted at the time, I have now come to terms with. I am twenty years old and I would like to say that I live each day striving to be more and ( Read more... )

Let's all just re-connect.

I keep looking up at you and smiling as you smile down on me and then remember you're

gone.

My violent tendencies are getting the worst of me.

I've given it my best and last (I say last, but let's face it, I'm weak) shot with you ( Read more... )

He misses me :)

God I miss you. And to think that I ever once questioned whether or not I loved you. The answer is so simple now.

I don’t know if it is intelligent or appropriate to think about you, to miss you at all. I don’t know if I should try to initiate a reunion between us or not. Mainly I don’t know why I take a different route home so that I can drive by your house, silently hoping for the tiniest glance at you, at what your life is life now, at what your life is ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a while, mainly because I've been too depressed and irritable to do a whole lot of anything. I hate my school. I hate the people. I hate my life. It's all meaningless and hopeless. I live each day waiting for the last ( Read more... )