Sometimes I remember about this and it makes me happy and sad at the same time. I had so many dreams and aspirations im my youth its crazy. My life is totally not how I pictured it. I live in Texas with my husband. I've been married for 6 fucking years. Im a desk jockey and i also work for an art place at night. I want to go back to school or ( Read more... )

Look 2 in a row (kinda)! So I've been listening to way too much b.m.t.i. lately and it's making me panicky about the future. Seriously I never thought 90 days could take this long. Talked about the reunion w Randi. I seriously can't believe I used to stress about the stupidest shit. Like I can only remember a handful of people's names let alone ( Read more... )

Well hello LiveJournal... randi reminded me of this today so why not post. I'm kind of still in limbo right now. I've got a big girl job now that I have to go to like everyday. Ummm I got married. I am still in clifton at my mom's. Patrick (hubs) and I are saving to buy a house. I got two rats, one named Ivan and on named Oliver. I also got my ( Read more... )

so yeah at this point I update this pretty much yearly. I don't know why. I think its because I just don't want my 'youth' to be dead and this is a diary of my youth. Anyway I live in Ireland for the time being now and have met the love of my life. I still miss certain people and certain times, but that's the way life is huh?

still alive

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5 years ago this weekend I was here:


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i wish... i wish i was a fish.

today i actually did everything I was supposed to with no break downs.
its a weird feeling.

Ive decided that anything worth doing is worth doing right.

Here's Some Goals:

I'm going to try to hit 80 by summer.
Loose the weight- Actually do what I need to do
Go visit Cali
Get Dean's List
Stop being afraid to grow up