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Scared
So, my headaches and eye issue turned out to be very serious. I've been at Stanford Hospital since Friday afternoon. Got admitted on Friday evening, spent all of Friday in their lovely ER. (Not so much ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I still feel like there are steel bands gripped around my chest. I can breathe now, but they've only loosened a bit, and not gone away. Time will heal as it does, but I have to be patient and wait. I'm working on distance, silence, patience, and forgiveness. All virtues I haven't practiced all that much. I've been knitting my woes into hats, ( Read more... ) -
remembrances
The Doctor ( Read more... ) -
life is changing
Jon broke up with me on the 18th. He's not coming back, at least not right now, possibly never. But, Never say Never. I am getting on my feet. I paid my part of rent this month, and have 230 dollars left over. I got an offer to move to Los Gatos, which I think I am going to take up, and its free of rent for 3 months. So I am going to buy my friends ( Read more... ) -
The porch light isn't lit
The full moon
lit the way for me
tonight, all blue
Reminding me you left
when the moon was new.
Reminding me- just how long you've been gone
and reminding me
that it'll be okay.
The moon will still shine
and go through her phases
And we'll be under the moon together
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rambling plans
I am in love. Utterly and unrestrainedly in love. I am happy. I can say this without strings, ties or pulls. I have gotten out of the house, am working, am grumbling about work (sometimes heatedly) and have something to do. I am looking forward to starting up school again in April. I am turning 22 this year. SO many good things. I have a home. We' ( Read more... ) -
Depression
I'm dealing with a weird sort of depression I think. I'm fatigued all the time. This isn't oh I'm lazy, this is ultimate fatigue. Like today for example...erm yesterday. (see I haven't been to bed yet) I got up at 8 am feeling fine, then around 2pm all of a sudden I essentially blacked out. I could NOT keep my eyes open. I tried. All of a sudden I ( Read more... ) -
Life
So I've been doing a whole lot of nothing lately. Been sleeping too much, got my hours all switched about. Trying to not get into a funk cause I feel it coming on. Had a good weekend, seems like it was way too damned long. My friends Garrick, Sharon, Jessica and Casey came over and we made a SHITLOAD of cookies. I mean a preposterous amount of ( Read more... ) -
books meme stolen from teh eric
first lines meme ( Read more... ) -
update
Jon and I had our 'semi-versary' last night and it was QUITE nice. We cuddled and took a nap in the afternoon because we both got home from work early, then he surprised me with 6 red roses and a very nice home cooked meal that he put together all by himself. We spent the whole night together, and fell asleep very late ( Read more... )