Been a long time since I was on this page.. Jeff and I now have 4 beautiful children, he is not around. We split up at the begining of my pregnancy with our fourth child. 1 boy, 3 girls. They all have such outgoing and wild personalities. I recently lost my home though, and for the first time I am forced to be without my children. I miss them every ( Read more... )

Love is a lie and people need to stop fucking dying. Jeff and I split up and my heart couldn't have been destroyed anymore then it is. And in the past three years at least 11 people I know have pasted away. If it wasn't for my children I would've given up by now...by the way I have 3 babes now. Yeah I know, I missed a lot of posts. There's a lot ( Read more... )

I know that no one will ever forget you. You mean a lot to all of us and you will always live on in our hearts. The image of you walking around in your bathrobe no matter what time it was, or the face you make when you are suddenly dead serious....or when you want to tell someone something and your tall ass starts jumping up and down all excited ( Read more... )

This is really just rambling, not that that's anything new coming from me. I'm bored and my game is down for rolling restarts. Damn it. lol So anyway...not to much has changed...go figure, right? Still in this rut and just found out it only goes in a big circle! How freakin great is that?! Yes, that was sarcasm.

I am beginning to find a lot of ( Read more... )

Well..I am not really sure where to start. My mind is very fucked up at the moment. I think I am trying to process to many things at once. As a couple, when something happens, if you can't forget, can you truly forgive it? What if you can never move past it? Will you ever be okay again? Here are some posts that I missed ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a while. Jeff and I have two kids now we are probably moving pretty freaking far from here in a couple of months and I am excited. TEXAS BABY! Yeehaw. So anyway....I'm not going to update on the bad drama bs right now..I don't really feel like it, but things are actually going pretty well for the moment. We'll see though. Just gotta ( Read more... )

It's another day and I'm still pissed. God, I am so tired of feeling like this! You know, I can be mad at him all fucking day then as soon as I talk to him it all goes away...that really bugs me! lol I love him though. Things arn't getting any easier though. I'm sick of people acting like he's still with his ex, cause he's not! HELLO!! RIGHT HERE ( Read more... )

My heart is breaking,
my brain is aching.
I don't know what to do, and I don't know where to go.
I need to be shown the way
and all I can do is pray that maybe he can someday.
It's ripping me apart.
I'm tired of fighting for his heart.
It's a battle I won't soon give lose,
but I will let him be the one to chose.
f his longs to be gone, then I must ( Read more... )

Hehheh, like my subject? lol It has nothing to do with my poem at all!!

My Everything

You stole my heart
And I don't want it back
I would gladly give you the world
Just to keep you beside me
You are the love of my life
My everything
I fall for you all over again
Just one look is all it takes
You never stop amazing me
And I hope you never will
We promised ( Read more... )

It's a brand new day! I love those days when you fall in love with the person your with all over again. I've never had that feeling before, but I love it. It just happened like two days ago and i'm still feelin it ( Read more... )