At midnight tonight this journal will no longer exist... Fair warning. It is 4-26-2006, the day I have stated I will remove this journal from the internet for good ( Read more... )

Ever since the actualy truth has come into my life - all my dreams dissolved before my eyes ( Read more... )

How can you just look at me ( Read more... )

Friend, enemy, lover - Lover, enemy, friend... Who is he? This sick twisted individual who claims he sees the error of his ways, but then again is pissed off because these people are confused and hurt by his actions ( Read more... )

... Wow... I don't think I've ever been more confused in my life ( Read more... )

Train Wreck

Somehow I always manage to do this;

I find someone that I can love with a love that is unmatched.

I forfeit my moral truths, my values, and I deny my inner knowledge;

Why listen to horrible whispers of a tragic end?

I love that person, and I love them with no regard for my own personal nightmare unfolding before my eyes.

I love in ( Read more... )

You know, it's fucking odd, I've been off my medication for so long now - It's not until the past three months that I have had to question my sanity once again.
Do I seriously have bipolar disorder?
I
I actually doubted this for a good long while... I seriously believed that it was all due to someone else's problem (spiritual)... Not only did I ( Read more... )

I've had a lot of time to think about my past, the things I've experienced, and the horrors I've endured.

I am proud to say that I am 20 years old, and I am thrilled to say that I plan to live a very long life. I am also proud to say that my life has been quite chaotic, and I only hope that the next 20 years are as eventful as the last. Yes, it's ( Read more... )

Hello to those of you whom read my jounral... I have a message.

Long before this journal there was a life untaited, untouched, and unharmed by the cruelty of man-kind.

... That life was mine, now only a distant memory dancing in the winds.

I don't know how many times I have tried to help those around me, how many times I have done a selfless act of ( Read more... )

I wrote something odd, and actually "coincidental" on my 19th birthday... After thinking about all that has happened within this year, I realize how right I was... A quote from the post I made that day (The link below ( Read more... )