So here I am all strong and independent in my resolve. I’m moving on from Danny and attempting to find love elsewhere. But now I feel a bit lost…and I’m lonely. It seems like everyone I know is so lucky because they’re all able to find people to love and love them back. People who will care for them and protect them and likewise in return ( Read more... )

So my day started off a little bit annoying. When I woke up I called Danny like I told him I would so he could come down to my apartment and we could hang out. I got in the shower after I called him just because I always feel it necessary to clean one self after having slept. I finished and changed and walked out of the bathroom, he was here on the ( Read more... )

Sometimes you have moments when…you really just need to be sad for a while. It’s not that you’re sad over any one thing or even that you depressed. You just…need to cry and clear out the emotional gunk mucking up the works. I’ve been kind of like that the last few days though no one would really know considering. Honestly…I’ve been denying myself ( Read more... )

Things in my live both appear to be getting better and at the same time I worry about if something bad is going to come and take it all away. My classes to earn my GED are in full swing. I am doing well at work and my bank account is remaining in the black (that’s a good thing for those who are confused). And Danny and I are still as close as ever ( Read more... )

My heart is on fire today and it seems like I could both laugh and cry all at the same time. It’s been another step forward and I pray we are able to avoid any steps back. Things are mildly improving at home and I think I am finally getting on track with my life. And me and Danny have grown a little closer ( Read more... )

Is it wrong that right now I just want to walk into the kitchen, get a knife, walk into my mother’s and boyfriend’s bed room, and stab him (her boyfriend) to death? Am I a bad person for hating someone THAT MUCH? Is it wrong that I, in some small way, want to see my mom suffer for making me endure this mans existence and presence in my home? Is it ( Read more... )

I wonder sometimes why I still post here on LJ. Its not like anyone is reading what I have to say and sometimes I wonder if I even want to. I dunno I guess I just want attention or something and sometimes it feels like I am all alone even when I am surrounded by people I love. Oh well...maybe I am just being silly...

Travel to the moon - you sleep, solving a dream ( Read more... )

So I have been both annoyed and mildly…depressed I suppose since last night. However, my depression manifests as vast amounts of anger with a wicked edge of sorrow on it. Last night wasn’t really an especially “bad” evening, more then anything it was a progression into annoyance. Everyone was either playing some kind of video game and being ( Read more... )

Black and white, this is how many people, be they of the past or present, view everything ( Read more... )