well ... my cold is going away and i can finally about breathe normal again. yippee lol. im am in some sort of running funk, or just really out of shape. 300H killed me the other day. i dont think they've ever felt that bad before but then again it has almost been 2 years. i want to keep working, i want to feel more normal and get faster. i ran ( Read more... )

ok. im giving in. im calling the doctor tomorrow. im sick of coughing and not being able to breathe. i want to be able to run hard again and feel like im completely out of breath. i want to feel normal again. i know im faster than many of those girls but right now i just cant show it. i want to run fat again. so i must visit the doctor. ugh. the ( Read more... )

it made me sick. and then it had to go and ge cold again so next time it warms up i will probably get sick again. boo. track work-out today would have gone a lot better if i had been able to breathe, but i still liked it. though i wish i could have ran a little faster. i blame my nose, lungs and the weather ( Read more... )

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well things are going and going is all i can say. school has settled into the blah motion. track is supposed to start for real on monday. my sprinting ability is shot, i really need to start working on that. my legs are distance jello. oh well, i'll work on it. and here comes march. in my opinion, march sucks. i think its the longest most boring ( Read more... )

i guess thats one way to make me accept things. and its not that i dont, but i just dont feel right yet. at times i feel great and i feel that i am where i want to be. then other times i question everything, like if im making the right choices and doing what i should. am i the person i want to be? i have no idea. but if i had to answer i would say ( Read more... )

We all begin with good intent ( Read more... )

so i guess the only reason i am writing this is so that i can look back at it later and laugh at my pathetic state. i have never been up and down this much in such a short time before. it just all happened so fast. and i shouldnt care, but i do. damn it. i was watching 10 things i hate about you today. hating the way i dont hate you. thats me. ( Read more... )

i hoping that all im feeling is temporary and it will all go away soon, or just adjust to the weather. yes i mean my foot, it hurts, not too bad yet but i can feel it just walking in my house and that is not good. i have a hunch that the fast extreme cold has something to do with it, but still. this is the time i need to get in shape and i dont ( Read more... )

i quit, and i think i have a good reason. i dont know for sure yet, but im thinking i can make a decent guess. overall it will be for the best, though it will take me time. things will be more real once im sure im right. school is killing me, mostly calc. im just glad that im running. running makes everything better. it can be almost surreal. until ( Read more... )