It's been over a year since I last posted here. I could blame that on all kinds of things, but mostly we just forgot this was here. DID and time it's all so weird ( Read more... )

Our life just keeps moving along always in this time warp. One of us holds a place in the present while it's overlapped with what the outside world says is our past or history. As I write I try so hard to stay in the moment but I don't know what moment we're in really ( Read more... )

Today our oldest son Morgan would have turned 28. Instead there is this vast void in our hearts. So many things that won't happen and all that did though wonderful and loving were just not enough. There are still moments in every day someone here thinks he'll just walk through the door laughing yelling, "Mom I'll home, what's to eat!" Or any many ( Read more... )

More on our soldier boy ( Read more... )

This is a general photo of IDF soldiers, we're not one for linking this part of our life with our son. I would not want him to read this journal, not for a very long time yet, he has a young life of his own to live right now. Someday later maybe.


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Holidays suck and ones that carry these kind of nullistic memories crash into us like tzusomi waves. Having that fear for you life, realization that you could die any second, guilt that you weren’t killed, surviving so they/he could do it again and more…well it’s hard to see the present is separate. Cuz really it’s never going to be separate, there ( Read more... )

sorry folks couldn't get Rich Text to work, but here's link to article ( Read more... )

Our son left just a week ago today, he's in Israel starting a new life. It is hard to think of him so far away, the Moms are frantic most of the time, but really we're not against this move on any logical level. Yes we will get to visit, we have a passport and will save for a ticket, once there we can always stay with our sister or Aunt or any ( Read more... )

One of world's top experts on biological warfare ( Read more... )

"Child abuse casts a shadow the length of a lifetime."
~~~~Herbert Ward