I"m feeling traped in a loop. i'm feeling so alone and unwanted for me. To find someone that i connect with that wants more then jsut my body I know I need to leave the house. but going out feels...I don't know, like to much work, useless.....I really did think that when I came back I would feel better. I thought the alone feeling woudl go away. I ( Read more... )

well it's been more then 24 hrs and i'm still here, but this mood hasn't gotten better. normaly the 24 hr waiting has been good for me. the make no decisions and just things flow. that doesn't seem to be working this time. if there are fates are they calling.....i don't want to make a choice i can't take back and have it be the wrong one. guess i ( Read more... )

i know that as time moves forward I'm suposed to feel better about everything. However just when I think I'm moving forward and getting my life/thoughts/emotions in order something sets me back. I wish I could figure out what it is that I need to do to get ok with how my life has turned out ( Read more... )

I never thought fiction could make me feel so ill and made. Season 2 of The Handmaids Tail has made me so angry at the world. when i watched the first season I thought, 'this could happen'. Season 2 has made me think this is what is happening in the US. I wish there was something I could do to change what is going on. But how can I, one person and ( Read more... )

So my life has been turned upside down and i'm freaking out...I got let go from Boss Tools last week, but i did get the job i interviewed for in London a few weeks back. So now i have to move. And since i didn't know untill i got to london that i got the job i didn't bring all that much with me. I did however on a wime bring 'dressy' stuff so that ( Read more... )

I need to get my ass off the couch and out of the house, so I’m starting a photo project again. Some of you may remember the 365 day project that I didn’t finish….well this one is going to be a 52 week project. And to help me get my creative juices flowing again I’m asking for your help. Every week I will be asking for ideas of what to take ( Read more... )

This seems to be the place where i dump all my anger, and sadness..and anything that isn't happy so it seems...and so i come here again and rant ( Read more... )

 I was wondering if there are any people here that are interested in Cardio Hoop Dance? I’ve become certified to teach classes, and want to start teaching. I want to do privet classes. I do not have a studio just yet but I’m willing to go to your house, or anywhere really to do the fitness routine. It’s a great workout! If anyone is interested ( Read more... )

Well it’s been awhile and a lot has happened. So I’m starting to get my life in order and work some stuff out….I’m trying to get a car, and get a loan to get that car. I’m dealing with work and all the fun that comes with that too.

In other news I’ve been dealing with some heart issues. Last week I was feeling very tired and funky heart beats…they ( Read more... )

I was told the best story this weekend by adam....many of is sexualy excapades are so funny....and when you know the people in the story it makes it better....who uses kiten tools lol. I'll never see her the same way, she will now be known as wiskgirl lol