I thought that making the choice of moving out would be harder and it would be more upsetting being that it's a day before Christmas and I'm not with my family. I thuoght that there would numourous nights of staying up late and crying. I haven't been very happy and I do miss my family. I mean I do love them so of course I'm going to miss them. But ( Read more... )

Sitting here without you hurts so much inside ( Read more... )

Yesterday was an awesome day. I really did have a good day. For once. It was nice. I spent a lot of time with Joshua which was great since it had been such a long time that we were together. I was happy. He was really sweet and has been since this weekend. Work wasn't all that great...at all actually. There were some problems there. Its ok though. ( Read more... )

The more and more I think about my options in life I realize how many I don't have. I can't handle living here, it's killing me inside and I know that it's killing my parents. I want nothing more than to move out after my 18th birthday, but those options right now are none. I don't want to move out of town, which all my current offers are: two out ( Read more... )

Well, after last night things really are a little different. I don't want to stay here anymore. It's just getting to the point that I hate being here. I'm grounded again....for another month. I don't want to go to Utah, in fact I think that I'm going to be going to VA and I might not be coming back. I guess it's whatever is in my heart...if even ( Read more... )

I have diffiantly been keeping myself busy. I guess I'm doing everything to not be home but also catch up from that month of being grounded. Finally able to go out and do whatever I want....within reason. Last Sunday was my first day being official off grounding. I had a lot of fun. I spent most of the day with my boyfriend and it was very nice. He ( Read more... )

Life really isn't getting any better when I actually think about and I put it into reality, but for about 4 hours life was better. There is this part of me that is screaming out to move on and be happy, but then there is so much more of me holding on to everything that I don't have anymore. Maybe 4 minutes out of the entire night I cried. I cried ( Read more... )

Life started to really slow down. Things were slowly starting to fall in place. It wasn't every minute that I saw his face. It wasn't every second that I was calling his name. I was thinking the other night. He always reached out to me. He reached out to me with his heart, with his soul, and his mind. But physically he always reached out his hand. ( Read more... )

No where to go ( Read more... )

I still feel so much pain and it hasn't even faded a bit...it seems like there isn't anything that is going to make it any better. I had my sunshine but now it's gone ( Read more... )