trust is a funny thing. from a paranoid view its completely unjustified, people can really just be pretending to your face... in reality you have no way of knowing. then spin it around, have you done anything like that to anyone? i have, yet i still trust, i think its because we want to, we want to believe that someone, sometime in our lives is ( Read more... )

ive decided that friends are ABSOLUTELY silly. when you dont want them theyre there, when you do theyre not. theres always something going on with em, and at the very best the keep life interesting... at worst..at worst they can be very bad.

So ive been hanging out with friends. Exercising. Loosing Weight. Having a good summer. Not thinking. Or praying. Or trying. And im happy. But i want my Jesus back, i think that would make things better and not worse.

So its been awhile, and for that i appologize to all the many people... or the few, who read my lovely little nothings. Soooo.... though it may be innapropriate i have a request. After haning out with a certain friend last night i started thinking about how much our lives revolve around other people, and how sometimes the only parts of us that are ( Read more... )

im confused by an awful lot right now. and i feel very alone in that.

So im in journalism for the next hour then off to a lunchless lunch, then another half hour of class, then spanish (which i might be skipping). Going home, eating lunch, hopefully hitting up the gym, then dying my hair cause i couldnt do it yesterday. Then C to the p to the R. anyone interested just lemme know and ill get ya details ( Read more... )

i wish i was stronger. then i could just dissapear like i want to. but heres the thing: i decide that i want to lock myself up and never have to deal with people again, but then i get bored. and then i need my quick fix and then i get too much of a fix, and i retreat again. its a vicious cycle, but i keep returning to not wanting people, because ( Read more... )

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on soWhere are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The Webs from all the ( Read more... )

so i didnt go to school today, i slept all day, its happened before. this is the story behind this one.

basically i had a good day yesterday, then i had a crash at night, a certain someone made things worse, then i went to bed deciding i didnt want to go to my first 2 periods because they are nonsense classes where i watch movies and check my email ( Read more... )

Just when i have figured out what i dont like about someone and what i am going to do about it, i will see him again and he will be different

i dont want to argue any more about how she "is" You see her one way, i see her another way, she sees herself a third way... Now if you want to talk about what how we see her indicates about us....

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