Goddammit.

You ever get the feeling like you're doing something wrong, but you don't know what? Maybe I just don't know what I want. Or I just don't know how to get what I want? I probably don't know what I want. Does anyone ever, really? I doubt it.

"Charitably... I think... sometimes, perhaps, one much change or die. And, in the end, there were, perhaps, limits to how much he could let himself change." ~Lucian (The Sandman-The Wake ( Read more... )

Dear Stomach,
I thought we had come to an understanding about being nauseous all the time? I would give you enough time in the morning to wake up and have food, and you would allow me to eat like a relatively normal human being. I feel awful. This is not okay. WE AGREED!!!

Ugh.

I don't even know. And that is both a good thing and a bad

I wish...

If wishes were fishes... Is that a saying? What's the rest of it supposed to be, I wonder, if it is. This weekend Meg said if wishes were horses we'd all be standing in shit, or something very much like that. Which reminded me of Firefly, if wishes were horses we'd all be eating steak.

I am full of sass and irritability today. Not good when I have to leave for work in a few minutes. I want to break something just to watch it crumble. Badly. Woo, mood swings! I'm going to listen to Love Song and hope for the best here.

I just got the most random useless voicemail. Like 15 seconds of what sounded vaguely like music from a car stereo and then nothing. No talking, no identifying. And I didn't have enough reception for my phone to register that I got a call at all. NO way to know who called me. I am painfully curious who was calling me at 11pm now ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking lately of getting myself a playstation 3. We have a 60gig at work, one of the few that will play pretty much any playstation 2 game. My playstation 2 is on its last legs anyway, and the PS3 would double as a dvd player as well. I already have an xbox360, technically (you'll give it back when I want it, right? :P), but there ( Read more... )

My "No D'uh" solution? Just fucking move now. I make things more complicated than necessary sometimes. I want this to work. So it fucking will. It is my goddamn life and I will live it how I fucking want to. This is ALL going to work out. Dammit.

Because they make me feel less scattered brained. And since I won't be able to move until I hear back from Central about my financial aid, they'll make me feel better about being stuck here. Give me a chance to start acquiring things... anyway, I probably don't have time to move until like July anyway. Suddenly June is BOOKED. I'm still finding ( Read more... )