L-O-V-E

Ya theres that word that all of us want but are afraid to admit. What a funny thing...a word just a word. It can mean everything to someone. I think I've realised it's not something you can find. Love isnt personified but people tend to make it. Love is blaimed for hearteche and deceipt, but love is just a feeling.

The problem isnt ( Read more... )

Im loosing touch...Im not the same girl. I guess it occured to me when I met Tandy's new boyfriend and he described me as being "blunt" and "mean". Noone had ever used those words to describe me before this yr. I was always so concious of how people felt...I almost over did it. I remember people telling me that I had a great way of showing my love ( Read more... )

RIP CRAIG A BUTLER ( Read more... )

Today was the worst... grad practice was boring but ok I love my class. It was when I went to work that I started getting that feeling. It's the feeling of despair...nothing can make you smile...people talk around you but all you hear is emptiness...I dont want to be around anyone...I dont want to hang out... I dont want to be at home...there's ( Read more... )

So this is going to be a very down hearted entry and I guess it's b/c Im frustrated. I just dont understand it... my whole life I have ALWAYS been 2nd best ALWAYS been the underdog. Yes Im in a state of self-pity right now. I've never been the most popular girl but I know alot of people, I've never been the prettiest girl but I've dated alot of ( Read more... )

So I wrote him a letter last night... and crumpled it up this morning. I know it wouldnt do any good. I guess some things are just better left unsaid... but I always looked at that as avoiding the problem. I couldnt help it... I feel so betrayed. I looked at old pictures and I realised that I was friends w/ the boy in those photos... I dont know ( Read more... )

Im ok really, although my entries may contradict that thought. Im just stuck I guess but Im not depressed just tired. All those words I used. Im feeling apathetic towards people.

SAVES THE DAY LYRICS

"Obsolete"

Every day seems the same to me
I sit around and think about how alone I feel
then I wind up rather enjoying loneliness because it's the ( Read more... )

I feel lost, worried, hopeless, tired, angry, sad, helpless, ugly, broken, misunderstood, lazy, irritated, confused.

U ever just have those days where u feel so hopeless. I'd rather not say the cause of my despair but just talk about wants. I really want to "break away" I need a change. I think that my problem is I watch too many movies and have too much optimism. I keep waiting for the best in life but what if it's not there. What if all the bad things people ( Read more... )

I hate how I have such a mix of emotions. It makes me feel incredibly immature to get so upset about certain things. I wish I could take my own advice and not let it get to me. In some ways Im getting over it. But for some reason I need you. Just every once in a while on those days when I dont feel like talking...I need to be able to call you and ( Read more... )