More of same... just that dad's gone now.
Oh, and if you find you're ever about to tell someone to 'suck it up'? ...there's so much I want to say but I also know trying can blow up in my face and has. I stopped doing things I enjoyed because of some of that crap. Shouldn't have to say but communicating is kinda hard when being shouted down because f ( Read more... )

I can't write what I'd like to.

Why?

Because I'd be complaining, again.

I can't explain why I feel the way I do and why.

Again, if you ask 'why?'..

Because it's what happens when you take care of someone..and I need to suck it up..

What? No, that's not it and that person is deemed competent.

Make excuses for them all you like it doesn't change that ( Read more... )

My father has a fifthwheel camper that hasn't been winterized. This is a pproblem that his dementia has had him putting off for months. It has frozen a few times now ( Read more... )

Things I worry about due to dad, school, bullying...pick something ( Read more... )

Around 4-5am on 9/17 I called my doctors office, got a nurse call back, almost every quick movement causes me to nealy black out..mosving carefully, not so bad. I check my sugar, 515.. So, three days running over 500.. Bad ( Read more... )

Sick. UTI. Sugar is nuts. After taking all the meds I thought I needed to early this morning I get out of bed and started to black out I made it to my chair. Got doggy out though didn't feel well enough to do it again so suggested dad might have doggy wanting to go out..got a kinda salty reply about him getting dressed first. I'm thinking 'Uh..I ( Read more... )

Okay, more idiocy. 'Dad..feed your dog..' I just got home.."Dad. Feed the dog.: -stand in front of the TV- "Now that I have your attention.. Feed the dog.. " I will...eheheeeeeh.. 'Molasses could freeze by then." I go and check her water..Bone dry. She's had to drink from the toilet, I didn't know so bopped her bum before I knew..feel bad now. Now ( Read more... )

Okay, I didn't grab a bettery charger from a car before it was junked. I've not thought too much about it other than to get a cheap one..did that.
I just got back from the store. Before I left though I let the dog out but found a plastic bag on the back of the boat in front of the garage, packaging for a new lock. Huh.. I look over to the garage.. ( Read more... )

Well, as I've been told I should do I'm writing things down as they happen. As you can see with the time stamp on this it's nearly 11:30PM and my Dad usually goes to bed by 8 or 9 and I know he's been just sitting in his chair for the past few hours after his -friend- though he wants her to be his girlfriend and have ( Read more... )

Therapy tonight... I've asked for hypnotherapy referrals as well.

Sleep deprivation or insomnia, loss of appetite, always on edge, stressed and guilted into staying in some way or other.

Sell everything and put it into a trust fund. I would have inherited the house and other things.

I'm lost, I had a plan, I gathered information to let someone come ( Read more... )