well i fixed my truck today i am happy about that. i have been doing very good no emo trips i do think i need to stop asking weird questions though. just a thought what up with things in the world now days seriously. people are no longer honest people are hatefull its bull shit. it sucks to hear im just used to guys that get angery and are jealous ( Read more... )

the other night i was talking to beth on the phone and we some how got on the conversation of what i would do if she got pregnant. well of course i said id help her raise the kid. i geuss i shocked her. i dont know why i shocked her. i told her id be here for here no matter what. i guess she hasnt heard that from very many guys or normal guys dont ( Read more... )

o k change in life style time ( Read more... )

hmmm whats new i havent updated lately. i got a new job :) i kinda let all my crushing feelings out when i told beth what was killing me. you know the problem i have with pushing away thoughts that dont make me happy. new moto if i cant tell her i can not tell any one. the thing is i can tell her anything and i know she wont hold it against me ( Read more... )

ok my parinoia fianly was right i kept telling myself she was further away cause of something i did . i was right i took things to closer to heart. and people noticed that i was down casue i took things she said to harsh. and now i was call a wuss for it and one of the people even said she has the girls back on things. lol i am a wuss but not any ( Read more... )

well. what can i say. idk lol. i gave beth 3 notes tonight. the first two im pritty sure she isnt going to like. but the last one i hope she likes. i just hope she doesnt get mad at me for writen that stuff down. all i can say in defense is hey im letting my thoughts out of my head and im shareing them with her so hopefully shell be more happy to ( Read more... )

its weird last night i sat up all night thinking to myself. i know i do that alot so its nothing new. the weird part is i thought ok am i in the right to worry like i do. i meen i know she likes me. but i cant push things to be what i want. i know i do not have controll over people and it would be wrong to try and control people. its wrong to try ( Read more... )

well it comes to not surprise to me. humph . once again i went to bed and woke with tears in my eyes. why cant i just shut my fat mouth. i cant beleave i said that .she is right i am the person that is more like him. but im not like him in the bad ways. at least i dont think so. it is ththe worst feeling ive ever had. right now. i feel like i have ( Read more... )

hmmm what a day. i cant drive my truck still. it is in not working condition. i had a detention after school . i got cigerettes today :) that put a smile on my face. i had aweird night last night. my dad is trying to change me to be something m not. he's trying to make me into his son from like idk like 10 years ago the kid that loved to just run ( Read more... )

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