its sad but i have to do it. i have to let her leave. i cant keep telling her i dont want her to leave. she deserves a better life then this place can offer her here and i dont know if ill ever leave this place so i dont want her to stay for me. its weird. i never would have seen my self telling a person i loved to leave me for a better life. if ( Read more... )

whats new in life. nothing really. im depressed and i dont know why... well i kinda know why. but unless you can read my private entry from the other day you will never know hahahahaha. darn you know password any way lol. but shit it doesnt seem to be getting better for me in life. i meen im happy about my ears now. i wish i could have gotten them ( Read more... )

okheres how it went down i was first of late for work. nice eh?. i got to work and i didnt have my work pants they told me go home look for them so i did guessss what they are all in the laundry at the laundry mat :) so i had to call in and they said i had the night off then. so then i call up jed and i told him i would give him some bass tips. so ( Read more... )

I know not all that was with good caps and periods but Im getting better.

Well ok I am starting to type and write in grammarical fashion. You know peroids and capital letters :).Well I went to the Career Center today and was told that all my band things I was editing was a waste of time cause no one will find interest in it. Well Turner is a douche so I dont care. Tomarrow im going to make an ad for like coffee ( Read more... )

ok tonight was ...lets say interesting lol. sam and i went to teh mall to get some stuff for prom. i found out wat a garder is . and that i guess they are there so that the person your haveing sex with can take it off kinda a weird thing to find out but ok lol. sam got mad at me casue i was getting all the attention while we were shopping cause the ( Read more... )

ok so beth wants me to update my journal so i shall. allright how was my day .... SHITTY. i got herassed at work i broke dishes at work i got yelled at about smokeing but i did get permission to have beth come over to my house....which kinda made me feel lonely when she said she wasnt going to come. i knida understand why she didnt want to. kinda. ( Read more... )

i learned something today. and ill try to stick to it from now on. when beth doesnt want to kiss me she isnt always playing dificult. so when she says shes not in the mood do not try to get her in the mood. i do still think that is is not and even trade she gets to turn me on and tease me but i dont get to do that back EVER with out going through ( Read more... )

ok so yeah. today i went and got an afi tee shirt it rocks :-D i went to the malls all over town today. i called beth like five times befor ei got ahold of her its funny we were playing tag for like 3 hours before i got ahold of her lol. so yeah she kinda made me worry today. i know im trying to cut back on that but yeah she said she is normaly ( Read more... )

ok i made it almost all day till now with like 2 hours of sleep ha i have done so much today fixed my truck went to town with my dad started a new song and said bye to mike as he left town for good. man it was a weird day i feel so strang. .... i wish i could just like cuddle with you right now cause i think that would make me feel better