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sometime i wish i could read your mind cause then i could just know what it was that was bothering you. or eating away at you. i mean i think i know what it is at least i hope it is that it is what i think. cause if it is what i think it is i would be so happy.i miss you alot beth i wish some times you lived next door to me that way i could just ( Read more... )

ok today started off slow very slow actualy. i went to the libary nothing new today of course books al over the place as usual. found out what ever feelings beth is hideing from me are eating away at her. i hope shes ready to tell me soon ( Read more... )

im still bored... :( id have you call me if i didnt know you were afraid to call my house. its kinda weird lately i havent gotten to talk to you much it kinda sucks. is it eating you up inside or something what ever your holding in? ill have to admit im eger to find out what it is but im also scared casue it could be something that will make me sad ( Read more... )

i hate the nights that she works and i dont cause im stuck her and i have no one to talk to ...well i could call some of my friends but its just not the same . plus i wish i could have talked to her before she left. i took a nap i wonder if she called while i was asleep i guess ill find out later

ok so yeah heres whats going on in my life. i got that job like i sadi its not much fun i get yelled at alot at work and i smell bad after work and get home at really late hours. beth is moving to florida she might come back in the fall you know that i have my fingers crossed for that one. and her best friend chris told her that he had feelings for ( Read more... )

okso yeah yesterday i had it all planned out i even had a second note writen out. then it all went to hell. i was kinda sad that i didnt get to see beth last night and it really sucked to cause i really really needed a hug from her cause its so comforting every time she gives me one. but yeah wow i think that she was right about the not holding in ( Read more... )

idk why i just have a bad feeling about today....not like im going to do something bad more like something bad is going to come up or im going to have like some bad news come to me:(

good neww i got my job bad news i have to shave good news i get to grow my hair back bad new i cant do anything with beth friday good news i start friday night good news i friggin got a job.

ok so yeah i wrote a rufdraft of how i was thinking of asking beth out acouple of days ago. i put down basicaly what i wanted to say adn then i was goin gto try andadd some things while i did it you know make it specail instead of me just saying "will yo ugo out with me" again i thought hey ill try and give her the reasons i want her to go out with ( Read more... )