how the fuck can you answer a question like that? it was like the best feeling i've ever had and the worst feeling i've ever had happening at the same exact moment in time. on one hand, i couldn't be happier. i mean, to almost assuredly know that you will get what you want more than anything. how could i not be happy about that? on the other ( Read more... )

for the first time in my life, i am actually speechless.

except this of course....

STAR WARS IN 7 HOURS AND 27 MIN.!!!!!

"i don't mean to leave angry,
this is by your own design.
i'm sure this comes as no suprise."

i am much closer to the edge than i realize. i don't know if i'm emotionally capable of handling this much longer. i'm so sorry about all of this. i just need an answer, but i know i can't have one. my hope is fading fast.

randomness like woah ( Read more... )

happy birthday...

yes, it is six a.m., and yes, i am at work.

i hate traveling the massive distance between hope and despair over and over in an instant. something new please.

random

the new starting line cd is tits!

and the depression, anger, and fear begin to set in again. damn you brain!!!!!

~~~quote of the decade~~~

"i've stepped in deeper puddles"

i think this is so hard because it's been a long time since i've had faith in anything. i don't really know what it's like to believe something is going to happen without concrete evidence. but, if anything is worth having faith in, it's defiantly this ( Read more... )