yes, i'm back to updating as much as i see fit.

no, i will not be using this name.

yes, my journal will eventually be friends only.

no, YOU are not invited.

new name

nonxoperational

it will be cooler soon

anyone want to help with that?

portland was fucking amazing. i'm moving there as soon as i can afford it ( Read more... )

my grandmother passed away this morning. i am making this post for those of you that knew her, or care. this post is not for me or you, it's for her. i loved her dearly, and she will be terribly missed. though i must admit that part of me is happy that she died because all she did for the last 6 months was suffer. she is in a much better place ( Read more... )

drama has taken over again. im done with this journal, too.

my carnal needs are raging right now, which is no good. i know i'm only human, and it's completely natural, but i don't like it right now. what's harder is that i'm pretty sure i could do something about it, but i think that's a really, really bad idea. i need some porn.

i feel like it's getting closer ( Read more... )

today was kinda rough. i missed her a lot today. it was mostly due to a dream i had last night. i wish so badly that it wasn't just a dream. it's like, "great, now i get to think about it when i'm awake and when i'm asleep." oh well, this too shall pass. i'm glad i've been happier lately. i'm still not happy, but i'm a lot happier. i think ( Read more... )

our show got canceled due to "uncontrollable circumstances", but i guess that's ok. it's not like i couldn't use the rest ( Read more... )

last night was really fun. lots of good beer, a few amazing random strangers, 4 guys living in glass closets. (TITS!!!!!) i haven't laughed that hard in a long fucking time. my stomach and cheeks still hurt. i'm pretty sure that's the longest i've had a smile on my face in a few months. "that's so yeasty that i want to bake bread." whoooooo ( Read more... )

i'm so glad it's friday that i think i just wet myself. let's recap, shall we ( Read more... )