Wow, in the middle of making one of the toughest decisions of my life. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just doing the wrong thing right now. While I'm happy at times, then there are nights like Saturday, when I saw him and just wasn't sure if I wanted to do it anymore. Maybe we've just been together too long or now I've finally realized and it just ( Read more... )

Ugh, I'm not feeling too hot about anything anymore. I feel like I'm really behind in school, especially organic (yuck) and I honestly don't really want to go class at all anymore. All I really want to do is sleep, eat, and sleep some more. But I know I can't blow this off because I know I'm not going to like myself any better if I do ( Read more... )

I hate making decisions, and I hate hurting people. I hate that I can't talk to one of the most important people in my life right now because I fucked up and I'm indecisive. Mostly I hate that I have the capacity to love more than one person.

I have never felt so frustrated with not knowing what to do. What's horrible is that I know what I want to do, or at least I think I do and yet, my god I just can't. It should be a lot easier, but I guess things never are. And I hate it. I can't talk to the person who means the most to me because he wants nothing to do with me-what a fucking ( Read more... )