I think I'm getting sick, I'm stressed, my face keeps blowing up, I need to write a paper for my independent study and can't motivate myself to do it, once again I thought that there was a semi-new person in my life and then got shot down, I feel like everything and everyone is moving forward but I'm on one of those movable walkways in the airport ( Read more... )

 ok disregard that last one. I am upset and it brings out the dramatic side in me. I'll be fine.

 I am so stupid. One could even say insane because I keep making the same mistakes and believing the same things and think things will work or be better. Is that not the definition of insanity?? OK I am going to say this plainly.... I need you guys to help me stop this. And no it has nothing to do with drinking or pills. 

 So I think I have been a horrible friend since leaving school. Actually before that.... I didn't say goodbye before I left ( Read more... )

 I am hardcore addicted to goldfish....the box is gone. I think at least one group movie should happen this weekend before we don't have any time at all. More goldfish are needed also.

P.S. I love you guys :-)

 On saturday it will be 9 months since I had my last drink.
I would do anything to have one right now and not care about anything else.
All i can think about is why? why me? why not me? 
I hear the word why in my dreams

i don't want to hear anything anymore. I just want to feel good.

 OK so this is all new to me, but I'll give it a try. My dog is currently watching me write this probably hoping I'll stop and give her my undivided attention. The past few weeks have been harder then I've experienced in a few months and it wasn't just for me. My friends all seem to be going through really hard times right now and I have no clue ( Read more... )